HAPPY NATIONAL DAY. :-)
It's currently 1.34am right now & it's just one of those nights I sit at my desk & start thinking about lifeeee haha for example it is scary that your whole adult life depends on how well you do as a teenager. I mean come on, whatever we teenagers are doing now we do not look into the far run because face it, most teeangers are materialistic, we do things often for our own short term gain & we do not really care about the future consequences. Here's just my two cents lol ok please don't shot me. Speaking of this, I realized I have not talk about the absurd grooming check rules my school have because of the new VP whoops okay that post will be up soon promised. :)
K actually right now I am thinking about what should I eat or wear or do tomorrow hahahahahahaha because it's Sunday which is equivalent to Tuition Day & that means seeing my friends but it also mean I have to choose my outfit of the day & honestly even though I enjoy getting out of my house it is having to pick what to wear for the day which frustrates me out because as people can see my fashion sense is not exactly the best & I really dislike wearing the same outfit twice! Ahahaha.
Putting that aside, I just wanna take this post to thank my friends like idk ley I just suddenly feel damn bless to have friends who really cares about me and yeah I know I should stop being so selfish and spare a thought for them who is most prob worried about me & to look forward to the good things in life instead of dwelling on things from the past and etc meh not going to preach here.
But nevertheless I am honestly touched when I start receiving notes/letters/messages from friends giving me advice on my... condition & spurring me on in life. Yeah I am truly grateful because it's not just the fact that they took time off to write me a card or text me a message, be it how short or how long, it is the fact that somehow it makes me feel secured that at least I came across somebody's mind; even if it's just for a minute.
I did not really take time off to express how grateful I am to have friends like you all in my life, but one day I will. I appreciated everyone who care for me & all the same gestures people do it just gives me hope because although it's the big things which counts, it's the small things which matters. Idk haha I just really like to observe people & even if it's unintentional, sometimes the things people do just makes me feel blessed. Just to let you guys know I am recovering I guess haha, thanks for bearing with my pms-ness & the ugly scars on me & my retarded character & my weird personality & I still love each and everyone of you sfm. I am currently 3 days clean woohoo I know it's nothing much but still it's a small accomplishment so I shall just keep this up.
To people out there who feel like people come to them only when they need something, just remember this:
Don't feel sad when people remembers you only if they need something,
Just tell yourself that you're a candle which comes to their mind when there's darkness.
Alright idk what else to type here so I shall just start a new post on my happenings in July & upload pictures because everyone likes looking at pictures (right..?!) huehue I shall continue living in my own world then goodnight xoxo
We break promises
Memories break us
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