This feeling sucks.

!@#$%^&*() _l_
#NOT PREPAREDFOREOY.
I officially hate AngMeiXia now. To think I once thought that I would encounter no more baised teachers after that horrifying two years experience with Mdm PIG last year, but no, I was wrong.
SCREW BIASED TEACHERS; TO HELL WITH THEM.
& I am so pissed at the whole world right now I feel like shooting everyone.
I am not going to complain about my life right now cause I know those kids in Africa are having in worse.
But seriously.
WHAT THE BONG. ASDFGHJKL.
I am so confused, so lost, so messed up inside. No amount of words can describe what I am feeling right now.
You suck. You suck. You suck. You suck. URGH!!!!!
K I think I am pmsing like some bitxh.
OMG AHHHHHHHHHH TTToTTT
Exam's in a week's time. WHY IS TIME PASSING SO FAST?!
Monday would mark the last lesson with 2LY. :'( DAFUQ SIAH.
Mixed feelings. !!!!! Not sure what to feel, like so fuckedup. Omooooo.
Why did I even study so hard for? If this is the kind of ending I am going to get, I should might as well just stop studying.
Why don't anyone see the efforts?
Why is everything about the outcomes, outcomes, & outcomes?!
I improved so much just to be able to have this chance, & you fucking crushed my dreams.
But to be honest, I don't even see the marks I want to see.
CONFUSED LAH,.
I am not actually not angry, I am more of disappointed, I should say. Or rather, sadness. Emptiness, pity-ness, numbness.
SYMPATHY.
Haven really started revision, unless you count writing down notes as revision. If it is, then I am completing the bio & chem revision.
Shall start chinese revision on Saturday.
HAHAHA #LIKABOSS.
My emotions are so screwedup right now, I have totally no idea what I am even gibberish-ing about in this post.
Alright, shall continue stressing myself up with STUDIEEEES.
Byezxcvbnm.

Walk Away

I know I said that I am on hiatus but recently I came across this song which almost make me teared. Okay, it was sang way back, like in 2007. I came across this song when I was 10 while watching mmv (maple music videos) before. But I was quite young then. Heh. Thus I didn't really know the true meaning. To me back then, I think the song had a catchy tune and the lyrics was pretty awesome so I remembered me replaying the song quite a number of times but I lost tracked of the song after some times & I didn't know the title. After fruitless attempts to search for the song, I gave up. But reccently I found it again. Shall just post it here to remind me when I looked back on my post that I was once a fan of it. So yeah. Here it is, :')

I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Yeah, I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind I can't help but question

Does she rub your feet
When you've had a long day
And scratch your scalp
When you take out your braids?
Does she know you like to play PS2
Till six in the morning like I do

I can't explain this feeling (yeah)
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on (uh huh)
It gets so hard to walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away
(Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk away
Walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away
I can't forget how we used to be

Our life from day to day
Hopin' maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
But I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question

Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we play?
Show up on my doorstep
With a bouquet
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say, baby, I love you
Like you used to?

I can't explain this feeling (I can't explain, yeah)
I think about it everyday (everyday)
And even though we've moved on (moved on, uh huh)
It gets so hard to walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away
(Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk away (walk away)
Walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away, yeah
I can't forget how we used to be

[The Dey]
Yeah, you gon' remember me, boo
I'm gonna remember you too
I can't forget all the crazy **** we used to do
You was doin' too much
I wasn't doin' enough
That's what your friends'd say
You got a man anyway
I can't explain it neither 
I ain't never wanna leave ya
Hell yeah, it's hard to walk away when I see you
When I see you I remember the day
You put your shoes on, and moved on before I could say...

I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
The things we did, the way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me, my friend, my love, my family
How did we lose the love that was meant to be?
Sometimes I kiss her, wish that it was you that I'm kissin'
Sometimes I miss him, wish that it was you that I'm missin'
Sometimes I hug her, wish that it was you that I'm huggin'
And I realized how much I'm buggin'
I miss you

So how do I express this feeling?
'Cause nobody compares to you
And you know that she'll never love you like I do

(Yeah) I can't explain this feeling (uh huh)
I think about it everyday (everyday, yeah)
And even though we've moved on (yeah)
It gets so hard to walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away (walk away)
Walk away (walk away)
Walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away
I can't forget how we used to be

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Forever you will live in my memory
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday (everyday)
And even though we've moved on (moved on)
It gets so hard to walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away (walk away)
Walk away (walk away)
(Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk away
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
Walk away
I can't forget how we used to be

I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me

Meh.

HEY EARTHLINGS; I AM GOING ON A HIATUS! <3

Look for the girl with the broken smile;

Hello! :D Hehe okay so I din blog for a long time I guess. Every time I feel like blogging but always end up failing. T^T Alright so I shall blog about my holiday hehehe. So firstly, I shall start off with the holiday homework. -_-

Things to do:ACC Project
Bio WorksheetChinese WorksheetChinese WorkbookE.lit PoemE.lit ReflectionChem PaperMaths Paper
Maths Project

Yupp ChungCheng, this definitely sounds like a holiday.

Hmm.., k anyway the exam schedule came out today! First paper; 2nd October. Wtf man that's like so fast. Urghh. & our timetable change again. !@#$. Luckily for both Week A & Week B, Art's on Friday! BWAHAHAHA. PE's on Tuesday for both week. & thankfully Geog's not with History anymore! But History's on Monday for both week also. Pssh.

Now I shall start with da real post. :D

Count your blessings. x

Monday

Was suppsoed to go Huiru's house to study. But... Yeah, I had some issues with my clique. :( & I couldn't bring myself to see their faces. So yeappp. I cancelled it. I AM SORRY!!!!! Next time okay. I promise. I WANT GO LIBRARY AGAIN HEHEHE. Spend almost the entire day sleeping. #pigforlife. But something happy happened during lunch time. :'D Studied Geog & Bio so hmm considered half productive? Meh.

Tuesday.

Project meetup with YuPing, Clarissa, & FangYing! But ended up failing as we couldn't find the Google Dimensions. :( Okay diediedie we are so screwed for this Maths Project man. Haven even really started!! Met Clarissa at my house buys stop first, before going to meet FangYing in front of Marine Parade. YuPing was late so we went Koi first as I wanted to buy. Heh. Bought Caramel Milk Tea. =D Then there was this 2 couple kissing on the bench infront of Koi. Disgusting max siah. Then me, FangYing & Clarissa over there keep rolling our eyes then we indirectly talk about the, damn loudly MUAAHAHAH. But they couldn't do anything cause we didn't make any eye contact with them. Then YuPing came & bought Green Milk Tea. :x After that we went to Subway. Bought Turkey & Ham Sub. :D But wasn't as nice as I thought! Talked for awhile, then we meet Mdm Tan, our school VP! Asdfghjkl. Then she kept looking at us so we waved to her. HEHEHE. Went to Scoop Of Arts Cafeee. Then saw YooJin & her friend there. She was speaking Korean #likapro. Anyways, this meeting failed as none of us bought laptop therefore we couldn't find the dimensions. Went to Marine Parade Library & made alot of noise there hehheh #expected. Camwhore alot ;) Before YuPing went home. ><" So had heart2heart2ear talk with Clarissa & FangYing. Then we went home!! So that's basically what I did on Tuesday. ^^

Wednesday.

Went to Chinese Remedial with Clarissa, Jamie, FangYing, Stacy, & Yuping! Super duper funnn. :D Laugh damn alot hehe. Because of Viari's hair!! Damn funny max. He just woke up so his hair was sticking up at odd angles. I suggested to him to wet it to make it flat, so he did... & HE CAME BACK WITH CENTER PARTING. AHAHAHAH. I laugh till I couldn't breath. Then after thatt Jamie went & draw ZhengDong's face. Hong Laoshi gave us KitKat before we went off. ;) Thanks!!! 8D Took a photo with her. :P & she help us open our classroom door! Yayyyy I managed to retrieve back all my stuff underneath my table so I am save. \m/ After that I went lunching with the girls - except for Jamie (Who went to Pig's Place(?) with her mum. Pssssh) - at Pastamania. Ordered Cheesy Crumble with Ham! Quite filling. :( I couldn't even finish mine!1 Hahah suprisingly Stacy managed to finish hers. :O We played Hand-Squeeze Murderer after that. Quite fun. :) Hmm.., nothing much happen that's worth mentioning bahhh. Alright, k I shall move on to Thursday. AHAHA.

Thursday.

Went out with Claudia! Hehe. Met her at Cheers at 11.30, then we went to Umi Sushi. ^^ & watched Paranorman. :D It's a must watch!!!!!! Quite nice uh, super funny & cute. HAHA. Sat in the last row. Bought nachos. ;) We couldn't stop laughing at how retarded the zombies look. We were laughing even during the scary part so the family in front of us kept turning behind to look at us. ._. I screamed at one part. xD Cause the screen was suddenly white then after that something jumped out. Claudia was gripping my hand damn hardly during the last part. Tsk. The ending was touching as well. :') But overall, the movie is not bad & worth watching. :B Took (failed) Neoprints after the movie, then I went her house & slack till 4.30. Before heading home. :)

Friday.

Which is today! Had piano at 10am. Went KFC for breakfast with my mama before going off for lessons. Did some duet pieces with Shermaine! ^^ Then went to Popular to stock up my stationaryyyys. Finally bought correction tape. LOL. & headed to Parkway to meetup with Joyce & FangYing! But Joyce backed out suddenly as she had headache. As I already said okay to FangYing last night, I couldn't go back on my word so I just went lorh. Went Subway again MUAHAHA. I <3 Subway okay. Bought Italian BMT this time round. Enjoy it much more than my previous sub. Talked for a while *winkwink* Then went off to Marine Parade Library. We couldn't find any seats at first, so we stood around like some idiots then this group of guys sitting beside the round table kept staring at us. Finally someone left the bench - & IT TURNS OUT TO BE WANQING. :D HEHE HIEEEE. - so we chiong there. xD #auntiesforlife. Did some work & talkaboutsomeyeahyouknowgirlstufflollol k dw to elaborate ehehehe so I shall end off hereeeee.

This totally sums up my whole (oh so productive not) week!

Pictures Below! #megalove

Taken in the library. :D

Oh did I mention how much I love them?

The reason why I love CO is mainly because of the people in it. :')

#retards4lyfe

"I was thinking why am I friends with ShuQin. Then.. I REALIZED WE ARE THE SAME BREED. :D" - Celine.

Taken at Yan's house! Credits to SiYun. ;)

ANGMEIXIA & US ♥ HEHEHEHE.

Shall end off now. HSK tomorrow! Omg 2 hours of torture. Kill me please. :( Yesss & I am almost done with writing down my sec 1 bio stuff. Yayyyyy. Alright bye. ^-^

The best of both worlds.

I am reallyreally stressed up now & I reallyreally want to blog but I reallyreally do not know how to start. :( School is so fcxked up now. Screw those friendship problems. & the people in it. Everyone I asked is advising me to leave, so someone please tell me why am I still hanging on? I really do not know who to trust anymore, it's like anyone, at any time, could just turn around & stab me right in the back. Do you even know how much it hurts? Getting stabbed, by not one, not two, but by a group of so-called "close friends" whom I trusted. Yep, I freaking trustED. Guess I was wrong then. I just want to thank some people right now. Stacy, Huiru, Isaac, YooJin, JiaYing, Yan. & a couple of other followers on Twitter who never fails to light up my day. It's the little things that matters. Hahahs. Maths UBD project on Tues. Paranorman with Dia on Weds. Was suppose to go Huiru's house tomorrow. But something cropped up. I want to thank her for understanding. :) Anyways, alot of stuff happened. Things that were piled up, overtime, & added on with some other outsiders. My clique is like a cell, I should say, & the people in it are like water. Too much water & it will burst, which it already did. I am confused now, like in a mess. Not exactly sure of my feelings, of my emotions. I hate how she is breaking up my clique now, & because of some very ridiculous, & lame reasons. It's not my fault for socializing, it's not my fault for having no data plan, it's not my fault for making friends with everyone. So I honestly do not get why should people have grudge against me cause of some pretty ridiculous stuff. I couldn't even bieve my ears when I heard them. It was totally ridiculous. So you hate me? Cool, take a number & come back to me when you grow up. All I want is a good night sleep now, & hope things would get better tomorrow.

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