what If

what if I am an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep 

3 days of extension week down, 5 more days to go. Still surviving pretty well!!!! Extension week is not //that// bad because there's only like 3 lessons a day & school ends at 11! Yay. Although some days end at 12.30 but it's still considered early. Actually I wouldn't mind going to school if lessons end at 11/12.30 everyday. :P

Tried to gehkiang & did the drop 10 workout yesterday & now I have muscle aches all over I CANNOT EVEN SNEEZE OR SHIT BECAUSE MY ABDOMEN WILL HURT SO MUCH oh damnit. In case people are wondering what the drop 10 workout is, basically it's just a series of exercise which is considered quite intensive to me lor. & this is only Day 1. ... ok

100 crunches
90 jumping jacks
80 lunges
70 squats
60 sec jog on the spot
50 sec plank
40 jumping jacks
30 squats
20 high knees
10 push ups

I AM ALREADY FEELING THE FATIGUE FROM TYPING THAT. HAHAHAHA. But hey after the workout you will feel damn shiok lor!!!!

Chinese o'level is like in less that 2 weeks time? Oooooohmygod urm ok tbh idek how to study for it T_T But ohwell shall try & finish up this cloze passage practices in this book later. Study date with Claudia tomorrow! Yay. Went to starbucks with Germaine today but I only managed to do three practices because we ended up talking for 2+ hours. XD

Anyway CO's not going to have overnight camp .. because 1) our teachers did not help us with the proposal, unlike the other CCAs, where their teachers helped out lol 2) there's too many people in CO & apparently there's this unreasonable rule of having 1 teacher to 10 students so we need around 8 teachers which is like nonononONOPE. Really lame max siah, as if we can even find any teachers who's not in charge of CO to come help out in the first place. Somemore need find until 8 teachers, seriously? 3) we only had like around 2 weeks to do the proposal & it's really damn retarded + unfair + unreasonable because obviously the quality of the proposal will be like crap. Don't use brain also know it's difficult to produce a good proposal with that short amount time frame right. Really just feel the need to rant because I just can't stand how unfair it is lor, we didn't even have June Camp, & somemore it's like 2D1N only leh. Volleyball 3D2N also can, table tennis 1 teacher to 50 students also can. Then we like this nia cannot, & the people in CO wah lagi best, will complain if the camp's not well planned har har ok. Got difference between complaining & giving qualitative feedback horh. I didn't helped out much so I can't say anything but I wouldn't mind doing extra stuff if we can have overnight, although it's kind of pointless now. I don't blame the Top 3 because I know they tried their best already!!!!!!! Plus they did like the most things. But I can't hep feeling disappointed lah because I was looking forward to the overnight camp then now. Kk nvm, shall just try & make this camp memorable and fun. Those rants above are base on my perspective, my own point of view, so I am sorry if it offends anyone l o l

Outing with LYCO on Wednesday. ;D Not really outing lah, just went around Marine Parade & took some retarded photos then ate lunch at scoop of art, followed by icecream at Swensens. Pig or pig siah us HAHAHAHAHA. Alright then shall go & revise for chinese o'level le, will blog soon hahaha xoxo

"If the sun were to explode,

You wouldn't know about it 

Till eight minutes later

It's not the part,

Where the sun explodes

That gives me a heavy heart

But the fact that, 

Me knowing

I wouldn't be able to reach you

Before the world went dark."

we think we’re made of numbers. percentages on tests, pounds on a scale, likes on a photo, price tags on clothes. but we’re not. we are made of love and happiness and they way we laugh. we’re made of good memories and late nights and past-curfews. we have more substance than numbers.

& if you talk, make sure you mean what you say

FIRSTLY SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING. HAHAHAHAHA. Wanted to blog like since 3 days ago but obviously procrastination got the better of me?? Finally decided to get my ass down to blog AFTER GORDON SHOUTED AT ME IN THE CANTEEN because I didn't update my blog wow ok thanks dude 

Had school for the past week, yay for normal lessonz!!! Okay lah but actually my class quite slack, because somehow we always managed to persuade the teachers to show us videos. So we didn't /really/ had any lessons. Overall, school is just sort of. Meh. Nothing interesting caught my attention, okay maybe except for the fact that NCC sold Krispy Kreme. One doughnut for $4. Ex right!! BUT HEY I BROUGHT IT HAHA BECAUSE THE PROFIT WILL BE DONATED TO THE ORPHANS IN VIETNAM SO I AM TECHNICALLY DOING A GOOD DEED haehae. :-)

~random picture time~

Remember the ice-skating outing I had, basically this picture sums up my whole day. Ice-skating x Marble Slab :-) Photoshopped Genevieve in there. HAHAHAHAHA. Spend like almost 40minutes doing this okay!! Used like PhotoGrid (compiling of the photos) > Line Camera (photoshop + date) > PicsArt (overlay)

USS with Denyse & Sis last Friday!! Was supposed to go this week, but my dear sister brought the ticket, thinking that the date was not specify, until she read the fine print & realized it's meant for Friday. Oh well, enjoyed ourselves nevertheless :D

Just a few photos, as the rest consist of camwhores. HAHAHA. 

YES I CAMWHORED WITH A GHOST

SEOUL GARDEN WITH CLIQUE LAST WEEK. HEHE FUN FUN FUN.

Amelia lor

Long overdue-d LYCO photo LOL

Went Sherry's house with Hazel & Germaine on Thursday. Was quite a horrific experience BECAUSE WE GOT LOCKED IN HER ROOM HAHAHA. Went library in the morning then went over to meet Hazel for lunch. Germaine joined us halfway then we went to find Sherry at Century Square. Headed over to her house & watched PeeMak! Third time watching it but I didn't mind because YES IT'S THAT GOOD. Then halfway through the movie Sherry wanted to go out to take water BUT WELL THE DOOR IS STUCK we shook it off, thinking that it's just a minor problem which could be resolved quickly later, we continued watching the movie. Yeah we did laughed, & screamed - & cried (well, excluding me because I know the plot already hah) It's like the nicest horror-comedy lah please. 6 out of 5 stars bc peemak HAHAHA OK IDEK WHAT AM I SAYING. So in the end Sherry's mum tried to hammer the door down. It was damn funny I swear. We were stuck in the room for another 15mins after the movie, before Sherry's mum decided to call the locksmith & SHE TOLD US WE HAD TO WAIT FOR THE LOCKSMITH TO COME 45MINS LIKE WHAT. But time flies quite fast as we prank called people + talked about stuff ok so it was still a great day afterall.

Had a jog this morning ^-^ & heading out now to fetch Huiru! Hehe alright blog soon yeah. 

It's okay

I am still

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bend, not broken

& we can learn to love again

Had a great time out yesterday & today! :-) Was enjoying myself until I realized I am going to get back my EOY results tomorrow whyyyyyy oh why. Not expecting anything much, just hope that I would be able to pass all my subjects.

Oh yeah anyway did I mention the incident where I accidentally deleted my 3IT album -.- I DELETED THE WHOLE ALBUM BY ACCIDENT K SHUQIN R U FOR REAL?! I am still damn pissed looking back at it now. It happened one week ago eh, & I spend the whole afternoon, like really WHOLE afternoon restoring back the album using this app. Because well, the album was reallyreally important to me as it contains like 130+ pictures of me & 3IT then all because of some careless mistake I accidentally deleted the whole album & I was freaking pissed. Wait the main point was after spending the whole afternoon restoring back the album using the app, they told me that I need to pay $78 in order to download the photos. LIKE SERIOUSLY W H A T ?! BECAUSE FIRSTLY, I spend the whole afternoon on it & secondly, why din they state so in the first place!!!!!! Thirdly, my photos are gone, FOREVER. & THAT SUCKS. So yep I was feeling pretty horrid over this incident that day, & I am actually still fuming over that while I am typing this. LOL.

Scrolled through the 2000+ photos, & 50+ albums in my phone to get rid of unwanted photos so that I can have more phone memory. But I am not even half done. ..... Wtf. Picture post up next! :)

Was re-reading through my old posts & I realized wow this blog came a long way. In around 25days time my blog will turn 4 years old! Gasps. Had been blogging a long time ago, since like P3?? But I deleted (not sure intentionally, or unintentionally though) my primary school blog which I grew to regret because there's really a lot of nostalgic memories in it?? This year had been pasting pretty fast ... From Sec 3 Level Camp to SYC to MYE to My Birthday Celebration to EOY. Ok tbh I forgotten many events already, including those significant ones. Oh wait, maybe they were not even singnificant enough to start wtih?? hahahahaha. K anyway, debrief tmr so wishing everyone all the best. Alright, time for a goodnight rest. Bye! x

plot twist: she's not that strong

YOU CAN'T REAP WHAT YOU DIDN'T SOW.

Recovery

maybe it hurts because you can't choose what stays or what fades away

Guess's who is back!! (hint: it's me) EOY IS FINALLY OVER. Well it's not /yet/ officially over but the last paper is English Listening Compre so who cares ahahaha. Oh speaking of tomorrow, I am currently helping Conant for his MuSP duet piece lol?? The exam is tomorrow & we have not even coordinate the pieces. HAHA. I bet Ms Hoe will confirm be shock when she sees me in the music room tomorrow, considering the fact that I was once a music student but I dropped that subject. Anyways, Conant's sister is damn cute lor I swear. But as for the brother (Conant)..., hmm it's a different story AHAHAHA KIDDING!!!!!!!!

We look alike hor ur argument is invalid

Just came back from the airport after sending my sister's boyfriend off. Haha he came Singapore for a week yep I am so tired right now but I figured out that I should do a quick update since I didn't post anything for such a long period of time!! Had been wanting to blog since last Friday but procrastinate got the better of me LOL.

WENT FOR SUPPER LAST NIGHT I CAN STILL FEEL THE FATS IN ME EVEN UP TO NOW U KNOW WHAT THIS CALLS FOR ME TO GO ON A DIET OK BYE

Nuaing on my bed right now someone tell me is this a dream or is this my life~ Ice-skating with the Yerens next Tues & Seoul Garden with my 2LY clique next Wed! OMG EXCITED :D Going to slack for the whole of next week, since the week after is normal lessons. ... Can't they just give us a break or something I MEAN I DON'T MIND LESSONS STARTING AT 10AM & ENDING AT .. 4PM?? Okay no idk haha. Back to it, shall enjoy next week before settling down to get serious BECAUSE IT'S LESS THAN 30DAYS TO CHINESE OLEVEL. Someone please tell me why did this have to happen just when I thought the torture is over. This period is worse than PSLE. Like really.

EOY was. Meh. I basically yolo-ed almost all the way HAHA. Was quite confident of a few paper but.. nawh. Not going to expect much because the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment. SO MY GOAL IS JUST TO PASS ALL MY SUBJECTS. YAY!!!

Headed to Bugis with Celine to meet Huiru & JiaWei after our Bio Paper. 

TAIPEI STATION.

Was supposed to eat at some buffet thingy but it was too ex so we went Taipei Station. The food there not bad lah. Cost $9.70 but there's like rice + side dish + milk tea so it's quite worth it! Would have helped if they gave more meat toppings though. The milk tea taste pretty okay, I choose 70% sweetness & the sweetness was to my liking yay, although the pearls in the milk tea would become harden after a while. There's 2 side dishes to choose from: Sweet Potato Fries or Tofu Cubes. THE POTATO FRIES ARE LIKE SDKGNSIONFASMLADKM HEAVEN. Okay not that exaggerating but it tasted good lor!!!! Celine & me planned to go Carissa's house after lunch but we were too tired so we went home to slept instead HAHA.

Was watching my drama when CaiLeng, Germaine, & Sherry decided to crash my house! Tsk haha. Love 3IT lah ((ok that was random)).

Hmm k just a quick recap of last week. 

So.., had SS & Emaths on Monday. SS was quite okay to me, except the fact that I didn't finish one question which cause me 6marks. But other than that, I was quite pleased with my essay. OH ANYWAYS I TOTALLY DIDN'T KNOW THAT WE CAN CHOOSE THE QUESTIONS FOR SEQ SO ACTUALLY JUST STUDYING ONE CHAPTER FOR CONTENT WILL DO SINCE IT IS ONE QUESTION PER CHAPTER WTHECK. Kk back to it, emaths was difficult. Like according to some people, more difficult then amaths. (although i beg to differ) then got one question got some error, then the teacher only gave us like extra 5 minutes to solve like srsly!! But I AM FINE WITH IT LAH lol bc idek how do that question in the first place AHAHAHA but apparently some people got really pissed then they ranted on Twitter & it was just urm. Lol. 

RnJ & Chem was on Tuesday. RnJ was okay but I didn't finish part 2 of the last question. Looking back now I realized I could have finish it if I wrote faster but oh well my hand was damn pain lor!!!!! (excuses, I tell myself) Chem was easy to me BUT BUT BUT I AM NOT GOING TO EXPECT ANYTHING BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO DISAPPOINT MYSELF. Texas Chicken with Hazel & Germaine after school hehe I ENJOYED MY ICECREAM YAY which is very nice btw (ok shuqin good to know) 

Then Egeog was on Wednesday & I practically gave up on the whole thing?? Idk lah I just lost the drive & motiavtion. Plus it was prettty screwed up at the start because 1) there was not enough seats 2) the last row didn't had the exam paper 3) the teachers were talking a lot of crap and randomly scolding us & when everyone finally settled down, I forgotten half of the things I memorized. LOL. Had a busy afternoon after that because the exam ended at around 9.50am. Went for breakfast with Carissa, Celine, & Kenneth. Then headed to Katong I12 to find Caileng, Germaine, & Joyin. At around 1pm, I then went to Sumedha's house to find her because Elythea is going to tutor her & me for amaths. SUMEDHA'S HOUSE IS 3 STOREYS LIKE WOW I TOTALLY DIN KNOW THAT OKAY & Elythea is a great tuition teacher. Patient + Smart. Ahahahaha lol. 

LOTF + Amaths on Thurs.... it was horrible don't even ask me why. LOTF was pretty okay like I finished everything, although I am not entirely confident of my essay & as for amaths hah don't even talk about it pls. The same incident that happened for emaths occured for amaths again. Some question got error then we were given an additional 5 minutes to solve it, BUT AS USUAL I SKIPPED THE QUESTION BC IDEK HOW DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE LOL.

Bio was our last paper & it was like. Double meh. Only managed to do 22marks worth out of 70marks of Section B & C hah tell me what's the meaning of screwed. Section C 30marks, all untouched. I really do not know what I was doing but I had a total mindblank. Spend too much time of this graph question that I really do not know how to managed the rest. Question: "Name the differences between Human Transport System & Plant Transport System." My answer: "The differences are that humans transport blood but plants transport water." I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS I DOING OK T_T

This is like a wake up call for me to buck up or whatsoever but I know I won't. ..... heh. Looking back now, the week past pretty fast!!! :O OK TIME NEED TO LIKE SLOW DOWN OR SOMETHING LOL I can't catch up with this. ;-;

Went to swensen with CaiLeng & Germaine two weeks ago on one of the date which I forgotten hehe. Attempted to take some candid photo of me & Germaine causally looking at the menu BUT IT ENDED UP AS A DISASTER OKAY.

Time to save my reputation (if I even had any to begin with) with this photo of me & CaiLeng HAHAHA OKAY. 

WE LOOK SO HAPPY.

Had been having kind of mix up emotions these few days, I mean I am currently happy with my life but at the same time I do not know why, but when I am alone, I just over think & get sad & feel empty & stuff. I guess it happens to everyone bah, just depends on how hard does it affects each individual. I don't dislike being alone but I hate feeling lonely. I REALLY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT LAH HAHA. But to put it in layman terms I am just being an over paranoid girl right now. Damn. I think that the worse part of being sad is that you are used to the pain, used to it so much that you get immune to it, that it does not even matter any more. Which happens to me... a lot. 

Recently, I have been dreading CCA to come. I mean, I don't exactly look forward to CO now. Sounds quite ironic eh? Especially since I am the recreational rep, & my duty is to make people enjoy CO. LOL. On a side note, I hope that my section can bond more........., but with all the drama nowadays urm lol idek what to do/expect/say.

MY MOTIVATION TO BE ALIVE ^

It's currently 2..15am & this means that there's less than 4 hours of sleep for me haha shag. Kkk time to go then!! Will update soon I promise. ;-) 

You don't deserve a point of view

If the only person you see is you

what

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Well I guess so??
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
Three year gap so I don't think it really matters heh.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Don't think I ever felt that way before.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I LIKE SMILING AT PEOPLE. ^_^
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I hope not!
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
SPEAK NOW.
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
ORANGE SLEEVELESS TOP + RED FBT 
8. How often do you listen to music?
Just 30 minutes ago~
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans I guess.
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
I think so haha. 
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
SOCIAL. :D
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
Nawh.
13. What about ‘R’?
Nope.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
WHAT'S THAT?!
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
YES. I get affected by people's opinions a lot. 
16. Are you going out of town soon?
SINGAPORE HAVE TOWN MEH.
17. When was the last time you cried?
Cry? One week ago. Breakdown? Three months ago.
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Yupp~
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
Yeah! Brown eyes ftw please.
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
Not absolutely everything BUT 95% I THINK.


OKAY HI GUYS I AM TOO LAZY TO CONTINUE THIS AHAHAHAHA k typical ShuQin hmm shall /try/ & finish this when I have the time alright short update coming soon! :D