3am in the morning.

I want to sleep but apparently there's this whole shitload of papers everywhere on my table bed floor and it's so damn frustrating I wanna cry right now but that ain't gonna solve the problem so here I am 3am in the morning attempting to clear the huge stack of worksheets oh fuck it.

Btw it's Denyse's bdae today so here's just a quick shoutout to her haha HAPPY 15TH BDAE MY DEAR PAY HAON shall not say much here cause I guess everything I need to see to you is mentioned in the message I send you. ^_^

Just finished watching the movie "lying to be perfect" & it's just greatgreatgreat. Nice movies to recommand, anyone?

Chem & Maths tuition on Sunday. Back to the basic. Lol totally not looking forward. TT Have to repack my chem tuition file too, sighhs.

Update soon I promise, would be busy in the upcoming weeks with school work and projects and piano and CCA but shall just cope with it & not complain because THIS IS LIFE.

xoxo,
ShuQin

He's Just Not That Into You

“Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs. And someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending.

Every movie we see, every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, this third act twist: the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. 

But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending, we don’t learn how to read the signs, how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave.

But maybe this happy ending doesn't include a wonderful guy. Maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over. Freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on.

Or maybe the happy ending is this: Knowing that all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment… you never, ever, gave up hope.”

I need to watch this movie omg.

I miss twoohonetwo.

Normal lessons resume tomorrow.

╮(╯▽╰)╭

Been feeling like crap ever since I got back the test results last Friday & I feel more like crap looking at my test results today. Sucks to fail something though you studied. Friends around me all complaining about how lousy they are when in reality, it should be me whining. Lol.

Mood right now: Shitty.

Reaaaal Shitty.

:(

Saw my zilians on Denyse blog OMG I no face see people now hahahahaha. CO election is on Wednesday, well good luck to everyone whose running for a position. Yay.

Still can't believe normal lessons resume tmr lol this sucks? I think we deserve a break. Like a real break. Not some freaking debate session, or some good teacher checklist. Yeah I know the whole cohort's results is not satisfying. I am pretty sure many people screwed up almost all the tests., but drilling stuff into our brains ain't the answer. I bet people won't even be half absorbing what we are going to learn tomorrow.

Schools needs to teach students about life. Not about what force acts on a certain object, not about how the particles in the air move, not about logarithms, not about whether earthquakes are formed at transform plate boundaries. School teaches us how to read, how to write, & how to apply. Then they teach us how to read, how to write, & how to apply all over again. Each time, they just make it harder, & harder.

Yup I do admit that learning all these things might prove useful to us in the future. But what we all need right now are not just this kind of crap we learn in school. I won't deny that they are important. But what good can they be for letting us survive in the society? Honestly, no one is going to go out there in Singapore with your PSLE/O'level/A'level cert taped to the back of your shirt. They are not going to be all bossy & egoistic, being all proud & stuff, ordering people around on what to do just because they are a scholarship holder. No one sane enough is going to go out there letting everyone know that they got a degree.

Grades won't get you far in life, your attitude will.

Racism. There should be a class on racism, on the unique culture style different coutries have, on their different dressing codes, & on the way they eat. There should be a class teaching people how to dress up for different occasions. There should be a class on sex education. A real sex education class. Not a class where they go preaching on what is the appropriate thing to do, on whether it is correct or wrong. A class where they teaches you the real consequences of unprepared sex, where they are able to use the word "fuck" & "condom" & all the terms normally. There should be a class on what life is like behind the prison cells. There should be a class on inequality, on why we should all have equal rights. There should be a class teaching you how to tackle questions during interviews when we grow up.

I guess this is enough crapping for today. All I need right now is a good night rest, alright bye xo.

Even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life.

Well I feel like a bitch sometimes, but now I totally feel like a bitch. Haha.

Went to Carissa's house with Celine. :-) Shall thoroughly enjoy myself before getting back MYE result this Friday. Been blogging quite alot this few days too~ Hehe. Shall keep this up. (Y)

Finally finish untagging all the unglam photos of me on Facebook. Gah. Realized how damn unglam I was last time. Somehow I got a sense of achievement(?) seeing all the photos of me get untagged. Maybe it's because I felt that I erase part of my past away, those that I wish not talk about. & it just feels great.

Yah this is just one photo to showcase the unglamness of me. HAHAHAHAHA lol.

Deleted friends from my Facebook too - mostly Juniors - those with weird names & what's not. Can't deny that I feel fake deleting those photos of me & unliking all the stuff I once liked, so no one will truly know the real me. Is like I want my Facebook profile to be perfect, I want everything to be perfect, I want my life to be perfect. Ever heard of the movie Black Swan? It's as if I am the protagonist in the movie (except the fact that I don't do ballet lol), I seek perfection. Don't come crap me with my bad grades & stuff, it's not as if I don't want good grades. Like seriously who doesn't want good grades? It's just that bad grades get attracted to me. I am those type of people who will just flunk a paper even if I did study. If I was meant to be good at this subject, then that's the only thing I would be good at; so be it.

Okay enough of those, shall go bath now & prepare my outfit for tomorrow. Did I mention I took nearly an hour to prepare myself on Monday. Lol!! Blame my insensitive mood which cause almost all my outfit not to fit the style I had in mind. Had not asked my mum about the outing though., hopefully she will allow. Alright time to go now, will blog tomorrow if I have the time. Ciaos. :-D

GORDON TAN

OMG SO APPARENTLY IT'S GORDON'S BDAE TODAY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA HI GORDON HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU FEELING SAD YOU FOR CAUSE TODAY YOU STILL NEED GO BACK SCHOOL FOR HCL LC HAHA I AM SO SORRY I FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT BUT HORH SEE I SO NICE DEDICATE A POST TO YOU SIAH HUEHUEHUE ERH THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME RANT COUNTLESS TIMES EVEN THOUGH IT'S LIKE INSIGNIFICANT AND LAME AND AND THANKS FOR CHEERING ME UP WHEN I AM SAD GO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY HECK CARE WHAT THE OTHERS SAY THIS IS A VERY MAINSTREAM ADVICE BUT LET SHUQIN ATTEMPT TO BE WISE SO HMM JUST BE YOURSELF LORH EVERYONETHING WILL WORK OUT IN THE END DE LAH HOPE YOU WILL MAKE YOUR PARENTS PROUD ONE DAAAAAY STAY GORDON-ISH BUT PLEASE STOP GUAILANING ME URGH ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR RESULTS AND STOP HAVING FRIENDSHIP PROBLEMS LAH HAHAHAHA KIDDING FEEL FREE TO RANT TO ME AH I MAY NOT BE THE BEST ADVISOR BUT I SHALL PROMISE TO BE THE BEST LISTENER URM HOPEFULLY WE WILL CONTINUE BEING CLOSE(?) OVER THE YEARS HEHEHEHE OK BYE.

Whoa I typed that all in one shot, which explained why there ain't any fullstop whoops.

Ok now really goodnight le if not I tomorrow cmi jaja. :(:(:(

Nobody have any idea how damn awkward I get around guys.

Currently blogging via my new phone. Hehehe. Oh did I mention my cover is turquoise & baby pink? :D HAHAHA I AM GOING TO BE JUDGE SO BADLY. But blech, who cares. It's like two of my favourite colour please!!

Btw my bdae is coming up. ;););) (hinthint)

Hahahahaha just kidding!! But seriously, whenever I see the year "2007" I would just be like "Ahh back then the 3
years ago thing ah?" Then it suddenly hits me that NO, it was not 3 years ago. IT'S FREAKING 6 YEARS.

ZOMFG..?!

Since when had time passes so fast. Din I just take my PSLE a few weeks ago? Can predict the holidays being over, school being reopen; feeling more stressed out, getting myself together, taking the endofyears. Me surviving through this year; making more friends, creating new memories, getting close to people. Finishing my Grade 8 piano, teaching myself braiding, learning to play the guitar, stepping down from the CO comm (if I can even be lol), revising for the prelims, taking the o'level, saying goodbye to all my friends, etc etc. Gosh, how time flies. ;-;

But one thing for sure: Life goes on., I shall just remind myself the fact that no matter what happens, I need to move on. Haha.

Eyes are turning red & I am dead tired right now but I shall bring myself to blog because I feel like my blog is like a snail without a shell, eating peanut butter sandwich without jelly, buying bubble milk tea without pearls IT'S LIKE SO EMPTY. Honestly I have no idea what the heck am I describing HAHAHAHA ok.

(I need to like stop using the word like in like every sentance ahaha lol.)

I can't stop doing the quizzes on blogthings.com ahhh that shucks! It's freaking addicting because it's true & totaaaally relates to me. *awkwardsilence*

Hmm anyways shall just touch on a sensitive topic (well, sort of) today. - guys. Urm is like, idk why I will get this weird feeling when I am around guys hah. Ya, I know in school I got talk to them lah. But there's always this invisible barrier which I put between me & the guys which makes me uncomfortable. Meh. I can never talk to guys normally without my voice getting like a pitch higher or whatever shitzxc. (/says in a bimbotic tone & bimbotically flicks hair) & IT SUCKS ASDFGHJKL. :( My voice get higher when I am nervous or excited. Talking to guys makes me nervous so yeah, my voice automatically squeals & get higher lol. Okay I need to conquer this fear!! Ahh. :(

Things will get tontonton worse if I like/eyecandy that guy I will be insecure like hell & feel horrible like heck urgh. Well, this mixture of feelings is just plain suckish alright.

(No one have any idea how much butterflies are having a fight in my stomach + how hot and red my whole face will get machiam desert + how sweaty my palms will get when I talk to him.)

Ironman 3 with Carissa, Celine, James, Jiawei, Huiru, SongYuan, & Yongler today. Damn nice. :DD I watched neither Ironman 1 nor Ironman 2, which explains why I was a tard bit confused at the start. However, towards the end, everything fell in place & I understood the plot. Althought it was quite violent, & bloody, it was still great hehe. Overall it was still a movie worth watching!!! :)

The plan was to be @ Bugis MRT by 11.30am. 11am, & I am still at home. :-) Met Huiru @ Tampines MRT at 11.15am. As you can see, we were both late. XD WHAT CAN YOU EXPECT HAHA. Reached Bugis MRT at around 11.40am & met up with the rest. (we were the last to reach, like duh) Went to Mosburger for lunch without Celine because as expected, she was later then us. LOL?

Went to buy the Movie ticket & had an awkward encounter Weizhi omg. Realized that the NCC guys are watching the same show & they brought the same timing tickets somemore. AWKWARDNESSSSSS URGH. Shared popcorn with Huiru & Jiawei then watched the movie which was pretty awesome blahblah. Came out & walked around the shops for a while before heading to Berrylite for Yogurt & true or dare.

Oh

And

I NEED TO RANT ABOUT SOMETHING HAHA. - I GOT
APPROACHED BY A MODEL AGENCY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I am posting it here so maybe erh in my later years when I look back in my blog I will be like omg wah sia la greatestjokeoftheyear siah, which I guess is pretty funny to me la, cause honestly it's the last thing on my mind lol.

Debrief is on Friday. Hoping for the best. What's meant to happen, will happen. (ok that's so deep I am gonna fall in hah) Not expecting much, just a pass will do. Studying reallyreally extra hard during the holidays!! Need to put in extra effort & buck up on all my subjects which I had missed out on.

Nevertheless, I am not gonna be a muggerqin. Instead, I will prove that I am able to juggle between work & play. Hah. Excited for clique outing on Wednesday!!! Hoho. Cycling @ ECP. :DD

Hmm, shall end off now. HCL LC tomorrow~ Hahahaha. Din expected myself to type such a long post (on phone somemore siah!) But once I start, I can't stop. Giggles. ((k that was totally gay) Goodnight & may the results be in everyone's favour. Haha.

Sweet dreams oh beautiful nightmare. xo

Galaxy S4 winkwinkwink.

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER AHAHAHAHAHA. After two werks of torture, omg. I never even felt this stress during PSLE! Then now is totally like cnveoalxjamd. FREAKING STRESSED.

Dedicated today to sleeping. Need to catch up on all the sleeping hours I lost during the exam period. Tchtch. All I did was to sleep, & urm sleep. Again. Oh dayum, not good. Not good. HAHA.

Had a great day out with Carissa, Celine, Huiru Jiawei, & Jolene yesterday!! Haha. Went to Carissa's house to play Kinect. ;) 

I am desperately finding ideas on what to do during the holidays hahahaha sobs. I bet everyone will be like going out almost everyday while I am just gonna rot at home.

Shall learn new chinese piano songs over the holidays! Unleash my potential nyahahaha. >:) Shall learn how to braid different hairstyles with my hair. I am always sososo jealous of people who can braid their hair!! Gosh, okay I will go & master it. XD

THERE'S ONLY SCHOOL ON TUES & FRI NEXT WEEK this is life. Hahahaha but guess it's gonna be quite boring if it continues!!! T_T Luckily my schedule for next week is gonna be packed whoops.

Monday: Movie with Carissa, Celine, Huiru, James, Jiawei, Jolene, SongYuan, & Yongler.
Tuesday: Eng LC in school & I going to be a loner after that l o l.
Wednesday: Cycling @ ECP with clique. Omg excited!!!
Thursday: MARKING DAY. Steamboat @ my house. :D
Friday: Release of results gasps.

Alright, ending here then. xoxo

You have got a lovely everything.

One paper down, 57392591 more to go.

HELLO!!! It's 2 days left to MYE, & surprisingly, I feel the urgency to study. But..... is not idw to study, is idk what to study. Sobs. There's just so damn many topics & so damn many subject to study that I just dk which one to study first. Urgh. :C

Using my phone to blog now because I realized how dead my blog is lol. This sucks hahaha, my blog feels so empty!!!!!

T_T 

K so anyways, yesterday I was like:

"Oh since tomorrow would be a Public Holiday, I should just slack today away & work hard tomorrow! :)"

But hey guess what! It's already 2.40pm & I had barely started on anything. Whoops.

English Paper 2 & SS tomorrow. Ms Teng is gonna treat my class Seoul Garden WOOTS............ if everyone from 3IT score B3 & above. Which is like urm impossible. Lol. My subjects are all like dropping. Meh.

Amaths used to be my strongest and favourite subject, but now my results for the latest quizzes are freaking disappointing. Emaths is like. Aiyah no need say lah. F9 all the way. (Y) I am counting on this midyear exam to pull all my results from Term 1 up. But at the rate of my productively, I am highly doubting so. Hahaha.

I am looking forward to the holiday!!!! 

Wow, 2013 is the first time in my entire chungcheng history that I would look forward to the end of a term, & be pipe up for da long, awaited holidays! Usually for the past 2 years, I would enjoy schooling so much that I think holiday is a bore. Maybe it's the fact that I got over you & there's nothing for me to look forward to everyday anymore haha.

Everyone in my class is smart and hardcore and mugger and studious AND THEN THERE'S ME. Yes imagine my pain. Totally prepared to flunk this exam BUT BUT I know I have hope okay, I can change the outcome of this whole situation SO YES. I will hang in there. :-) Just two more weeks, they say. Just two more weeks, I tell myself. Just two more weeks. JIAYOUS SHUQIN HAHAHAHAHA. (meh stop judging this is how I motivate myself)

Ok shall just let the pictures do the talking. 

JiaYing's Christmas Present to me ☺ 

"Mugging" at Macs.
HAHA.

♥

Last Year.
Taken at the bus stop right before clique outing.
The place where our clique was first form.
This makes me realized.
How much I miss them.

WANQINGGGGGGG.
I am gonna miss her so so so so much.
:(

Annabel. Me. YooJin.
Taken in JiaYing's house a few hours before LY class chalet.
Nostalgic. 

ABTM with CCHMSCO LYians. :D

After xuwenjing's concert. ;D

Back in the 2010s.

Joyin. ;)

My leg really looked like it got abuse.
Sobs.

ABTM2 with them. ♥

After a day of shopping at Bugis.
Tired Faces.
But Happy.

Old Airport Road right after SYCO rehersal. ☺

It's blurred, but I still love them anyways.

Derp Faces.
Am I the only person who find this photo damn amusing?

With Julia da twinnnnny. :D

Muggernyse a.k.a the Chongster.

CARISSA.
The girl who never fails to make me laugh every single day.

PuiTing.  ♥
I remembered how often we used to call each other;
Every Saturday or Sunday night.
Talking for hours and hours.
Oh the old times.
:<

With FangYing.
Taken in Sec One.
Miss those memories. :(

HOW MUCH WEIGHT I HAVE LOST,
SINCE LAST YEAR DECEMBER.
AHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Yup.
You.
Why did I fall in love with you.
Got over him, & you came along.
Thanks.

Loots in Thailand last December. ;)
After a few hours of walking around aimlessly with my sister.
Meh.

Sherry Seah the Bimbo.

ENDING OFF WITH A PICTURE OF ME,
DRAWN BY MY BEST FRIEND.
HUIRU.
LOL.

To all my viewers reading this blog:

Lubb eu all mani mani ex oh ex oh kiz kiz muackzxcs ♥

HAHAHAHAHA JUST KIDDING. 

adios bitchachos x