I'm constantly torn between killing myself, & killing everyone around me.

Was doing chinese revision just now but halfway through I sort of lost my drive to revise so yep I shall blog then, haha. EOY is coming, in one day's time - to be exact. The fact that I am not even worried although I sincerely know I am not prepared AT ALL, scares me. Eh not funny sial. & I still can't be bothered to study lol. 

OLEVEL Bio SPA is tomorrow & I am basically screwed. Ha. Ha. Ha. Okay instead of complaining I shall just start all my revision at 11pm. I think I am damn funny please, in the morning got time don't want study, always wait until at night then start mugging. Hmm alright hope that it would be productive mugging session later. T_T

Currently addicted to this song called "Don't Cry" by Cyndi Wang. It's the OST of this drama called Love Keeps Going & OMG THE DRAMA IS DAMN NICE LA CAN I LOVE MIKE HE AND AND THE CHEMISTRY HE AND CYNDI WANG HAD IS LIKE ASDFGHJKL OMG.





Lol kk anyways I realized if I use one hour to study one chapter of Chem, I will need fifteen hours. Oh holy. But somehow I like EOY because we get to go home early. Yay!!! On a more serious note, I need to buck up on my studies. Tbh I always wanted to be like the top few in class so I can make my parents/teachers/myself proud but.., nawh not going to happen this time round I guess. Shall go & continue my chinese revision now ehehehe alright ciaos. 

A thousand times I've tempted fate

A thousand times I've played this game

You make me go asdfghjkl;

Okay I am finally back ehehehe. Sorry for the long haitus!! Was real busy for a couple of weeks & I am glad that this week's finally over. School had been a bitch for the past week, having 6 text & 2 SPA urm what alright was feeling quite stress up BUT IT'S ALL OVER NOW WOOHOO. Shall start preparing for EOY because I haven't started & I know I am pretty much screwed. 

Anyways had Teacher Day Celebration on Thursday and I am grateful to be able to be part of it hehe thanks to talent time. & I got to know more friends because of this!! :) Brendon, Celine, Josephine, & me did "Counting Stars" by One Republic. It wasn't exactly brilliant but hey at least we had fun. :D

Although the schedule is kind of suckish because firstly, it was said that the top 8 groups can perform. Then they cut down to the top 5 groups because of time constrain. Celine & I were like the seventh group so we couldn't perform haha, & of course people got pissed luh & then a new schedule was set where there would be 4 performances: Dance, Xiang Sheng, Riffles Drills, & Singing. AND THEY MERGE TO 4 GROUPS OF SINGING TOGETHER. LIKE THE NEW ONE DIRECTION. WHATWHAT WHAT. 

Then it was like totally wtf because I don't even most of the people in the four groups (ok I know them but I am not close luh. Some people weren't happy so we got split into two singing group: Brendon, Celine, Josephine, & me + Conant, HengWei, Rosemund, & YuXuan. So there's was like five performances: Dance, Xiang Sheng, Riffles Drills & 2 Singing. Everything was going great until they told us that due to time constrain AGAIN, only thee groups can perform.

So we had ANOTHER round of audition on Friday, this time judged by Mr Chua LIKE IT'S AN X-FACTOR OR SOMETHING WHEN IT'S NOT !@#$ I MEAN I DON'T GET WHY NEED MAKE UNTIL SUCH A BIG DEAL ok whatever but on the bright side my group got in although the other Singing group & Riffle Drill didn't get in & it was kind of disheartening for them. Then ok so had rehersals & the actual performance on Thurs!

Tbh, I wasn't even expecting that it would become like this. LOL. But it turned out well in the end so all's well~ Feel happy to get to know Brendon & Josephine & some of the committee haha.

First photo with Sumedha hehe

I look weird here but whatever k yay photo with Caileng

Putting that aside, met up with primary school friends on Thursday also! Had fun & caught up on the happenings for the past few years. I didn't see some of them for almost three years already. :O

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A lot a lot a lot of stuff happened last week which left me disappointed and hurt and sad and idk but the talent time and the dinner and the last night chats with all the members of the Teacher Day Celebration brighten me up!! :) Feeling empty right now because I know I would never experience this kind of thing again sighhs.

Went back to school yesterday to clean up the Grand Audi because Mr Yee said that it wasn't clean enough. BUT WHEN WE WENT BACK TO SCHOOL THE GRAND AUDI WAS VERY TIDY AND NEAT and obviously people got pissed off and started complaining AHAHAHA. Actually me & Celine don't have to go back de, but we went to extra. HAHAHA. Then we headed to Bugis with some other people winks. 

Have so much to do but so little time! Ahhhhrgh ok shall go revise bio after this. Have to learn to manage my time wisely from now on T_T I don't get why is our end of year exam so soon lol wtf, two more weeks?!!! IT IS LIKE INSANE OK ONLY 14 DAYS TO STUDY I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE //flips hair //flips table //flips chair But no, I have got to study & make sure I improve & not retain. Sobs. But firstly I don't even know what I don't know YES THAT SUCKS HAHA. Hmm have to pack my table tomorrow. I PACK MY TABLE WEEKLY BUT IDK WHY IT ALWAYS GET MESSIER AND MESSIER WTF which really piss me off a lot because I like my stuff to be neat pfft. 

t(^-^t)

Ok shall go off now, kk will be back to blog soon I hope xoxo

The hardest thing to let go is the ones we never once had