Here's to 2014

CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS LIKE THE END OF 2013. Last blog post of the year! Haha tbh I am anticipating 2014 because I know there's much more exciting things to come compared to 2013. 

“Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one.”

I really have no idea what to blog about because I feel that whatever I wanted to express is already written here on my blog!

I am really like so happy that 2013 is ending hahaha because this year was kind of shitty for me, .. but I have a feeling that 2014 will be a good year for me. :D Alright shall end here. HAHAHAHAHA.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!!!! ☺

01.06.13

HI I WAS NAPPING HALFWAY when I felt the urge to blog about MY BIRTHDAY POST WHICH GOT DELETED ZZ so I shall just talk about what happened on my birthday before I forgot everything.

Woke up at 7am to receive some wishes from people I never thought would remember it's my birthday. Was quite touched yeah. Replied those messages/whatsapp then went to Twitter to reply birthday tweets before going back to sleep.

I was supposed to meet Sherry, Shermaine, & Hazel, 11:30am at Tampines MRT but I woke up at 11am! Haha win. Hurried to Tampines MRT & I reached like about 30mins late. :( Thought that they would be angry but no they hugged me & wished me Happy Birthday. Hehe. Was really grateful they wasn't angry. :-) Headed to Ikea & we walked around, taking random photos before going to the Ikea restaurant (??? idk what is it called) for lunch! :D

So here are some photos taken hehe:

SHERRY & SHERMAINE

ME & HAZEL
camwhoring in the toilet HAHAHA

SHERRY & HAZEL PLAYING with the clothes they found
 in the closet and oh my god Hazel
your face plz

idk what were we doing LOL
& while we were taking this photo some dude
which walked past was totally judging us
:-(

WATER BREAKKKK
this was like the only group photo we took
although it looks kind of screwed
but aiyah not bad already lah HAHAHAHA

OUR LUNCH 

did this since we din took any group photos

So Carissa & Jia Wei were supposed to join us for lunch but somehow while I was lunching, JiaWei send me a text saying she cannot make it. Was quite disappointed lah. :( I thought Carissa could make it however she text me soon after saying that her tuition ended late. So it was like double the disappointment? But thank god Hazel, Shermaine, & Sherry were there with me luh. :')

Then halfway through the lunch, Hazel received a call. I asked who is it, & she was like "Oh Genevieve." I thought it was just Genevieve asking about homework (HAHAHAHAHAHA OPPS SORRY) so I just brushed it off & continue eating my chicken wing which taste damn heavenly fyi AHAHAHAHA.

So me, Hazel, Shermaine, & Sherry were like busy eating and gossiping and laughing and talking and suddenly
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Two psychos jumped on me. HAHA. I can still remember those 2 words being shouted into my ear & I was damn shocked I screamed damn loudly till those sitting nearby were looking at us. I turned around & guess who I saw. Yep Carissa & Jia Wei. I was like freaking surpised that they came lah. & of course I was really happy! I started asking a series of questions like OMG WHY U 2 CAME I THOUGHT U ALL CMI WTF U SHOULDN'T HAVE JUMPED ON ME OH HOLY I WAS DAMN SHOCK etc etc then yea of course they waited till I quietened down before talking. HAHA

Jia Wei took out a maroon coloured bag & Carissa started saying that they were late because they didn't manage to get me a present so she headed to Bugis Street with Jia Wei to grab some cheap present & they managed to get the maroon coloured bag at a deal. Being the gullible person I am, I believed her. Then Jia Wei made me guess how much the bag was & I said $10 but she told me it was $5 & started speaking a lot of crap like HOW PRETTY THE BAG WAS & HOW CHEAP IT IS & HOW IT MATCHES HER SHIRT SHE WISHED SHE COULD HAVE IT LOL but I was pretty touched already because I know it's not the price of the present but the thought that counts. ;) #deep

I didn't really expect them to get me a present because my birthday falls on a school holiday, so all along I spend my birthday alone (except during 2012 where I spend it with huqin haha u can read the post here yay) so I was quite happy they got me something despite the cost yep!!

But that wasn't the only surprised they gave me. Carissa handed the bag to me & forced me to open it in front of her. At that point of time I didn't suspect anything so I just opened the bag & the first thing I saw was like shades of pink?? I was confused LIKE I MEANT ISN'T THE INSIDE SUPPOSED TO BE MAROON?! So I opened it & idk once I took the (real) present out I started tearing because it was a pink polaroid. AHAHAHAHA I was honestly touched beyond words ok I really didn't expect this present AT ALL. Turns out the maroon colour bag was just a distraction, & the phone call was from Carissa, not Genevieve. Haha.

Hazel, Shermaine, & Sherry left because they had to rush home or something but I am still thankful to them for spending their day with me in the morning. :-) Now for the afternoon part. Which is part 2. Something I am too lazy to write about. HAHAHAHAHA. Okay will continue it another day. (Y)

♥♥♥ 

On the other hand, I think I am getting over the co is very sian phrase in my life! Thank God for that. Kind of miss CO now. :-( Hopefully CCA will resume soon yeah. Will update the recap of this week soon. Just watched Miracle in Cell No. 7, & spoiler alert: be prepared to have a lot of tissue nearby. Cried way more watching this than while watching Peemak. Yes this is how many touching scenes there is in it. Alright shall sleep now, going to Huiru's house tomorrow! :D LOL OK BYE/

MERRY CHRISTMAS :-)

HEY GUYS OK OK YES HI I AM BACK YES I KNOW IT HAD BEEN ALMOST A MONTH SINCE MY LAST POST. AND YES I KNOW THAT TECHNICALLY IT ISN'T CHRISTMASS ANYMORE but it's the thought that counts k. HEHEHE and haha I am back as promised!! :D (although i am like 2 days late lol whoops) Nothing much happen this month, it was just basically:

First Week - Slack

Second & Third Week - China

Forth Week - Probation Tests

& FINALLY TADA HERE I AM AGAIN slacking my life away. Hahahaha. I can't believe it's going to be 2014 in less than a week time?? The heck I thought it was still 2011 LOL.

Honestly I rather 2013 be over as soon as possible. I CAN'T WAIT FOR 2014. 2013 was full of bullshit. Okay kidding that was the first word which came onto my mind LOL. I have no idea what word can I use. Erm 2013 was exhausting? 

This year was like a roller coaster ride, I was thrown into a new class with 38 girls, I made lots and lots of new friends, got into quarrels, fights, thankfully they were resolved, & I managed to patch up, I experienced many new stuff, learnt shocking stuff I never knew about people, realized that some things are better left uncovered (as in, it's better to not know about some things), & also had plenty of life changing events (not really life changing, but k u get it), which well, changed my impression of many many people.

But nevertheless, I enjoyed it. & truth to be told, I would kind of miss 3IT when I graduate haha (thinking too far lol)

But right now is like, I don't even feel that it's 2013 any more lol. I kept thinking that's it's 2014, but it's not yet 2014! DO YOU GET ME. I feel that I am in between a period that is neither 2013 nor 2014. I am like floating around in some random week haha. SO I JUST WANT THIS WEEK TO BE OVER, 2013 TO BE OVER, then I can start anew in 2014.

Quite nervous for 2014, I think it's one of the major years in my life?? The year I will be taking my o'levels. Kind of excited for it tbh haha IDEK WHY. Hopefully 2014 will go on smoothly. :D

PROBATION TESTS ARE FINALLY OVER & I AM LIKE 2349208% DONE WITH CHUNGCHENG OKAY. So firstly, Chem & SS probation test was on Monday. & they gave the same exact paper as EOY. Which was pretty retarded. On Tuesday, there was Bio & Physics probation test. Idk what happened but I think ChungCheng decided to "OK THE TEACHERS ARE SO FREE WE ARE ALL GOING TO SET NEW SETS OF PAPER WOOHOO" because the probation test is a completely different set of paper from EOY. What is worse is that I think most students went to study the Bio/Physics EOY paper because they thought that the probation test will be the same as EOY due to what happened on Monday WHICH IS PRETTY DARN SAD HAHA.

BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, I DO NOT HAVE TO STUDY FOR ANY MORE TESTS TILL NEXT YEAR. Hehe. & I can fully concentrate on my (untouched) homework now. I am pretty screwed?? 

Oh my parents gave me a wallet for my Christmas present yay! & guess what colour it is. Yeah pink. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I think my parents thinks that I am obsess over pink or something because firstly, they brought me a pink water bottle. & now a pink wallet. HAHA. Currently I have like a pink bag + pink earphones + pink phone case + pink phone skin + pink wallet + pink water bottle I THINK I AM GOING TO TURN INTO PINK PANTHER SOON.

Will be blogging about this week soon, had been going out everyday. Oh damnit. & I am sorry this blog post is so dry. :-( Will upload photos the next time round! Alright shall sleep now ahahaha nights. :D

I'm too tired to of always being mad at the world

some people are so poor all they have is money

I know it had been so long since I last blogged but post coming up on Christmas Day okay promise!!! Probation tests coming up so all the best to anyone taking them. :D

short update

I apologize for not updating my blog T_T Anyway, china in less than 24 hours I have no idea what to feel sobs. Ok a quite recap of my week yay:

Spend Monday, Tuesday, & Thursday at home studying (or rather, trying to study) haha. But okay lah quite productive .. compared to other days. Was supposed to go out with JinYee/Claudia but I cancelled it because I had to study!! Hahahaha hashtag knowing my priorities winks. Studied at Mac Cafe with Celine, Germaine, Hazel, & Tedric on Wednesday. I HAD NO IDEA TEDRIC WAS THERE. Gasps well whatever, I managed to read my SS textbook, which was so damn dry :-( But I completed my SS homework!! Yay.

Had a mini class gathering yesterday at Yan's house~ With Annabel, Jamie, YooJin, Gordon, Isaac, JeeChong, JingHao. JingJie, Jonathan, MingShun, & WeiZhi! :D Didn't really BBQ since Yan's maid did most of the job HAHAHA but we had a great time catching up.

Finally finished packing my luggage!! Hopefully there would be wifi in the hotels I am staying at, but oh my god no Twitter + Facebook??? Sian. Shall just make the best out of it, & enjoy myself there LOL sense the hesitation heh.

Sorry for the late/short post!! Update soon xoxo

maybe because our promises were never even whole to start with

I don't even understand half of what I think

so what makes you think you do (because you don't, lol)

I make mistakes. Everybody do, don't they. What I don't understand is, if nobody tells me what wrongdoing I did which lead to my scolding. How do I change?? How do I improve?? Honestly, I really do not know.

Had an argument with my sister & I lost control. I admit that it was my fault, but I lost control not because of the matter. But was because of what the matter lead me to think. Really dislike her & the way she caused me to think. No, it's not my sister. It's someone related to me, & it's not my mother either. That person influenced my thinking, in such a bad bad way. I hate it.

Now's not the time to talk about that so oh well, will continue it one day when I get all sad & lonely & emotional.

Current mood right now: Confused, Complicated, Hurt, Tired
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Goodnight x

I'm friends with the monster

That's under my bed

They get along with

The voices in my head

maybe the reason why tears are shed when someone dies

is that whatever they had been providing for so long will no longer be available because they are no longer around

Finally changed my blogskin after 2349012 years. I guessed I got sick of seeing pink all the time. Holy grail. (I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THAT WORD SUDDENLY POP UP IN MY MIND)

OKAY CURRENTLY TRYING TO BLOG AND DO LIT AND OSU. BUT I AM FAILING?? LOL AS EXPECTED. OKAY CIP TOMORROW I AM SO EXCITED. :D THERE'S LIKE $20 + FREE VOUCHERS + FREE MEAL + FREE TSHIRT & OH NOT TO MENTION CIP HOURS!! OKAY I THINK I SOUND VERY AUNTY NOW BUT DON'T JUDGE LA K HAHAHSDKJFNADFNA I MEAN HONESTLY THIS KIND OF DEAL VERY HARD TO COME BY DE YO!!!

Urm k shuqin enough of hyper-ing about free stuff.

Anyway anyone remembers this post? Actually I doubt anyone did (like does anyone even read this space of mine??) Nawh it's okay shuqin one day someone will stumble upon this piece of crap. Idek why I am talking to myself?! But it's okay I am used to it. :(

Me: I need to stop talking to myself
Me: I know right
Me: I mean like seriously, it gets so irritating
Me: Haha
Me:
Me:
Me:
Me:
Me: Lol

Back to it, so I am finally continue-ing the post after like 7 months. WHOOPS IT WAS POSTED DURING APRIL? & whoops the last line was like "alright shall continue with this tomorrow~ :)" but I never did. //shoots self 

Okay so here is it:

Save more $$$.
I have no freaking idea how my pocket money depletes so fast. Like seriously. I can spend up to $30 a day? Even during normal school days. & I REALLY DO NOT KNOW WHY. ...!!!!!!!! I guess I need to be more careful when spending money lor. But tbh, my school food is damn expensive?! One bowl of rice is around $2.50. Then some more is not those kind which will make you full. The portion is like quite little okay nevermind SHAN'T COMPLAIN. So honestly I need to figure a way how to save money so I wouldn't be a spendaholic (is there even such a word ha ha) when I grow up yeah. 

Stop having the dkdc lifestyle.
Honestly I think my life is full of "idc"s, I feel so restless 101% of the time. Can't concentrate, can't focus. When I hear someone badmouth me (?? last time??) l will obviously feel agitated duh, I mean who wouldn't. Haha but after a while I will just be like "orh k badmouth then badmouth lor" THEN MOSTLY I TALK I WILL JUST GIVE THE BOCHUP ATTITUDE, LIKE END EVERYTHING WITH "LOR" "fail then fail lor" "idk anything lor" "up to you lor" "like this lor" "huh nevermind lor" YES YOU GET IT. Thinking back now, it's quite irritating, but I can't be bothered to change it OMG HAHAHA JOKING thus I shall try to be a person with better focus!! /insert motivational quote here/

Okay I am too lazy + tired to continue (oh god this sounds damn ironic wtf) shall continue this ... one day so yezzzz ending off soon. Oh yeah anyway my CO camp photo post will only be uploaded when I receive the photos taken from -idkidc-'s DSLR. Hahaha, & oh next post will be something requested by someone okay this is damn gay but oh well asdfghjkl BYE :D

it sucks, lol

when everything is fine

but suddenly, it all crashes again

& the worst part is

you have to try & patch everything

back together again

even if you don't wish to

I guess that I forgotten I had a choice

are you even aware of what you make me feel

ALOHA. So CO camp is finally overrrrr, & tbh I really enjoyed the past 2 days. Sorry for not blogging yesterday, was so tired I knocked out immediately when I got home. Of course I watched Disclosed first lah. OH DID I MENTION THE LAST EP SUCKS?! WTF. IT WAS LIKE SO SUDDENLY, THEN SO MANY UNANSWERED QUESTION. IRRITATING SIAH. Kk back to it, this would be like the first & last CO camp comm'13 is going to plan together, & it's rather sad. :-( But it's quite heartening to see the members enjoying themselves. :D ( .. i hope so) 

Anyway Day 2 was Amazing Race! Frankly speaking, I preferred Day 1, the Station Games. But maybe it was because my stations were more fun in Day 1. :P So we had some delay in the morning which got everyone a bit annoyed because we had to drag the whole thing. Caroline, Felyn, PingXuan, & me stayed in the CO room and we helped to conduct the mass game. Hehe it was damn fun I swear!! Played Wacko & Blow Wind Blow. Wanted to play H2O but we didn't had time .. Caroline & PingXuan joined in the game while me & Felyn lead the CO, hahaha. 

Then the Amazing Race was finally settled, & the members got into their groups blahblahblahblah, I was in the same station as Caroline! Talked about stuff + camwhore-d (typical me yo) Btw we failed quite badly in making the station fun for the first 2 groups because we had the charades + this stupid rubber band game suggested by me. AHAHAHAHA whoops. Actually could tell the groups were very bored lah, until we decided to change the game & changed the rubber game into some singing song game, spicing up the atmosphere .. by a bit more. 

After Amazing Race, everyone gathered in the CO room. Then because my POP slides got some problem, so everything got delayed again. LOLLOL. Let the CO members talk among themselves, & finally managed to settle the slides after a frustrating 40 (??) minutes sorting it out with Benny, Brandon and ZhiYi. Had POP with like 30 pizzas? Ate like 3 slices yolo, but some people wtf they 5 people take 3 boxes!! Tsk. But oh well moving on, had the passing on ceremony & I was the photographer but I think I take very fail photographs. Hash tag I tried. Spend the entire week worrying about whether HuiHui will like the present I got for her a not, & I AM SO HAPPY SHE LIKED IT. :D AHAHAHAHA. 

Had water bombs after POP. ^_^ Was really memorable & fun!!!!!!!!! But quite tiring for those people in charge of the water bombs because if I am not wrong, around 4 people tied 1500 water balloons? Plus the comm had to clean up the plastic bags left lying around after the "fight".Thankfully some members came & help us picked them up. XD

Got the members to change, wash up, etc and wait for the Top 3 to debrief them before everyone gets dismissed. The comm stayed behind to talk for a while (for me, it's just another photo taking session hoho) & to decide on where to eat. For like 30 minutes, we were choosing a location for our dinner. LOL IDK WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO SETTLE ON A PLACE. Finally I just suggest I12 then yeah headed there lor. Ate at Cafe Cartel. :-) Quite cheap ley actually, because got buy 2 get 1 free promotion. HAHAHA. Headed home after dinner. At that point of time, it was already like 8:40pm. & I KNOW I CONFIRM WILL MISS MY 9PM SHOW T_T SO I VERY SAD. Kk, that was totally irrelevant. Hmm took bus 31 with Johnny Wongwong (k I meant Jonathan) then ya reach home at around 9:50pm? & then I just sua nvm I rather go iriscable.com watch the full ep at one go then watch the last 10 mins. Went to bath, watched the ep 19, scrolled through my Twitter & Insta feed, & finally slept. 

THAT WAS BASICALLY MY DAY YESTERDAY. AHAHAHAAHAHA. Okay photos up in next post! :)

Because

I was left to cry there

Waiting outside there 

Grinning with a lost stare 

is it better to be loved or to be feared

Oh god I am so tired. 2 more days of this week left. :-( Today was really busy. Been up since 6am, & only managed to settle down at around 8:30pm.

Actually today was quite fun. Hehe, took care of 2 stations. "Honey, I Love You" with Brandon, & ZhiYi. "Drip Drop Drip" with Heiman. Both was damn fun. But drip drop drip was damn tiring I swear. Ran from the toilet to the venue with the FULLY-FILLED pail for like 8 times. Damn my arms. ;-; Honey, ILY was damn retarded lah I swear. IDEK WHY I CAME UP WITH THE IDEA. AHAHAHA facepalm self. But luckily some members of the group were enthusiastic enough, which makes the game more hyped up. :-) & special thanks to the first 2 groups for bearing with us, as the game was damn fail because we totally took them as a pre-run group. :P

Overall the games were enjoy-able. Although I was dead beat at the end of drip drop drip, but I was damn happy seeing the members enjoy the game lah. :D Honestly the way the members in the groups worked together to race against time was really like, wow kk they were quite bonded okay. Then for Honey, ILY, it was really hilarious like mad. Freaking funny, I laughed until last warning, & I wonder how some people managed to keep a poker face throughout the game. XD

After the games ended, Jasmine, JiaYing, & Shuqing came to spray me & Heiman with water cooler water. >:( Then Caroline, & PingXuan joined us. Haha in the end we were running around, spraying each other with water. Chased Jasmine all the way from concourse block to innosphere. Nvm good workout. HAHAHA. Had debrief, & something minor happened which caused come people to quarrel but oh well, hopefully it's resolve now! :-)

Headed to Paya Kopitiam for dinner with Benny, Gordon, Jonathan, Yongler, & Zhiyi! The queue for my dinner was so long that by the time the uncle asked for my order, Benny, Jonathan, & Gordon had already finished their food. T_T

Just some photos took today. More to be uploaded soon! :D

group photo with the last group yey

while waiting for lunchhhhh.

taken during the first game. :D

HAHAHAHAHA hashtag we tried

while the members are playing drip drop drip!

Okay ending here, goodnight. ^_^

“The thing I’m most afraid of is me. 

Of not knowing what I’m going to do. 

Of not knowing what I’m doing right now.”

11 months of 2013 gone.

& I felt that all I had done this year was to disappoint people, & more people

This week was so busy. Oh god. The worse part is, it's not even Friday yet! Damn. There's CO camp tomorrow & Thursday. As expected, there's no overnight. .. Kind of disappointed but oh well at least there's a camp! :D (trying to be positive but failing lor)

Anyways had a great day out today ^_^ Although I spend like $50+ :x Went shopping for POP stuff & finally after a looooong search, found something that Hui Hui //might// like. XD Haha. Met Darilynn, Heiman, & JiaYing in the morning where we went & surprise Annabel for her birthday at Swensen! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNABEL. HEHE.

Annabel's bdae surprise!! 

 Idk why everyone looks so awkward here. 

 Meh.

Headed to Bugis with Darilynn, Heiman, JiaYing, for lunch. Then around 1pm, FangYing joined us & we caught a movie! Went to Bugis Street after the movie, brought quite a lot of stuff. :O Brought HuiHui's POP present, new skin cover for my phone (quite chio okay), & hair extension. Went to popular after that & I brought correction tape. AHAHAHAHA. Then mum asked me to stop by T1 for JCO donuts, so yep basically spend $50 for the whole day. Sobs.

Chio hor!! Okay I know my photography skills sucks, but whatever lah aiyoh.
Plus it's like rotated.
BUT I AM LIKE LAZY TO ROTATE IT BACK.
So whatever. Heh.

Damn long lah k, to my dearest bel. Machiam write essay like that. :P

Girls do what they do best - camwhore

Taken today. Heiman your face, plz maintain.

Throwback to long time ago lor, 

LYCO outing. :D

Act yi xia.
Oh & Gordon's face is forever that expression in photos, I swear.

Quite funny ley this meme, done by Jonathan

HAHAHAHA, dk why I like laughing at myself.

Whoops.

... urm k zhanau

... trying to be macho

... with waterbottles

... stolen from co room

Oh this was damn asshole. Because there was like this very high platform.
Then everyone like jumped down from it. Except for me!!! Hey please it's like so high
& I am wearing a skirt okay haehae.
So I tried sliding down lor. & I got stuck. ._. Then Jonathan wah.
Instead of helping me, he go stand behind me post with the photo.
Tsk, see this kind of friend. So yep. Origin of this photo. HAHAHA.

Okay shall end off now. Time to sleep. Hope CO camp will be a sucess tomorrow. Nights. ;-)

i love those mornings

when i wake up 

& my mind is clear

when i forgot what i was thinking

of for the whole night

when those thoughts finally leave

me alone 

that 3 seconds of pure blissfulness

... before reality slaps me hard

Life.

ALOHA. OKAY I AM LIKE SO TIRED NOW BUT I AM HYPER. AHAHAHAHAHA K NVM T_T Didn't managed to catch the 9pm show today. Sad right!!! Reached home at around 9:40pm, & since there was only 20mins of the show left, I decided that I rather watch the whole episode on my phone SO YEP I DIDN'T WATCH IT. LOLLOL. So today was quite fruitful?? Went out with Annabelle, Benny, & Gordon to discuss CO Camp stuff + POP shopping. Hahaha. Was pretty productive, but tiring.

AMOUNT OF STUFF BROUGHT, GASPS

group photo yayyerz

Went to Bishan in the morning to meet ReiYin to pass her her SS textbook because I took it home by accident. Oh ya & otw there I met Heiman! Haha then I went to Bishan CC to buy Starbucks, but when I reached there I decided to save money so I went back to J8. HAHAHA. Met Annabelle at Bishan MRT then we went to Parkway together. Benny waited for us for 1 hour. LOLLOL SORRY. K then went Subway to eat lunch + discuss about the camp stuff. Blahblahblah, at around 5+pm, we headed to Daiso to buy the camp stuff yay!!!! Then we went to this convenience shop to buy our miscellaneous stuff, & we met JeeChong, Marcus, Ms Koh, Ms Lu, & WanXin. HAHAHA LOL. Gordon, JeeChong, Marcus, & Ms Koh then cabbed back to school to put the stuff because it was already like 8pm?? Then Annabelle, Benny, & me went to Food Republic to eat, while Ms Lu & WanXin headed home. After that it was already like 9pm so my dad came & fetch me ohoho & YEPZ I JUST REACHED HOME LOR. HAHAHAHAHAHA. KK SO BASICALLY THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED TODAY. YAY!!!!!!! OKAY LOL I AM HIGH NOW.

Had strictly pancakes for lunch yesterday, hehehe. Went with Chelsea, Gordon, Sabrina, Yongler, & Zhanau! Ate what-a-spread. $11++ BUT IT WAS LIKE DAMN FILLING LAH, & SUPER SWEET. It was quite worth the money, although the next time I got I will share the meal with someone else.

my lunch ehehehehe

group photo!!!!!!!! :D i know i am not looking at da camera but whateva

Omega, Yongler, & Zhanau was totally complaining how sweet it was, & how they can't finish it. Whereas Gordon was happily enjoying it. Then we were all laughing at how gay it was. AHAHAHAHA BUT I KNOW GORDON'S NOT GAY LAH. SO YEAH. LOL. The boys were like trying to stuff down the pancakes, in the end Yongler went out for a walk because he couldn't take it anymore. When he came back he was like telling us that he is going to jog 5km when he get home to get rid of the amount of calories he consumed that day because of the pancake, which is damn funny lah wtf. Still got other stuff which is bloody hilariuos but I forgotten them heh. OH I REMEMBER GOT ONE WAS WHEN I TRIED TO VIDEO OMEGA (who was complaining about the pancake). But I didn't realized my camera flash was on. So Zhanau like asked me why am I taping Omega, then I scolded him for ruining my plan of //secretly// filming Omega. & he was like: "Urm I think he knows you are filming him .., because your camera flash is on." & I WAS LIKE OH SHIT. AHAHAHAHA THEN I WAS TOTALLY EMBARRASSED OKAY, & CHELSEA WAS LAUGHING LIKE MAD.

Alright then I shall end here, wow I finally blogged after so long. I AM PROUD OF MYSELF. LOL. Okay update soon ;-) (although I highly doubt so HAHAHA)

i hope you're happy

I have this weird obsession with washing my hair lulz

Breaking news: IT'S CURRENTLY 4AM & I CAN'T SLEEP ASDFGHJKL

Here's my face in case anyone missed me:

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Well I want to be a graphic designer when I grow up. But to do so I guess I have to enter Poly instead of JC. Which is like a nono from my family. LOL. Bloody judgemental parents and bloody judgemental relatives and bloody judgemental older generation people. Idk what's the big deal of going to a Poly instead of a JC. Like what?? Just because Poly fares are more expensive the JC fares? Or is it because Poly is kind of like a "neighbourhood school" where "bad kids" go to? Wow I really don't get adults sometimes. 

I know it's more difficult to get to University when one enters Poly & that the degree from a Uni holder far outweighs the degree from a Poly holder. The 2 different routes are: Olevels > Poly (expensive) > Uni/Work or Olevels > JC (cheap) > Uni (expensive) > Work. So technically it will be the same just that if I go Poly I have to pay the money earlier so the money ... does it really matter that much?! 

Wanted to be a blogger / teacher / wedding planner but I realized all of these are just interests, they aren't going to take me far in life, ..

OKAY IDEK WHY AM I HAVING SO DEEP THOUGHTS WHEN I AM ONLY LIKE .. 15?

I CAN'T STAND IT WHEN PEOPLE THINK THEY ARE ALWAYS CORRECT. ESPECIALLY ADULTS. It's really a turn off until cannot turn on. Cannot even find the switch to turn it on. LOL ANNOYING MUCH? How they think just because the younger generation doesn't rebut back means that they can shoot their damn mouth off at them. How they think that they are always correct & whatever they do is simply just "oh it's just for your own good yo". How they think that being older means they can say stuff which hurts your pride, hurts your self esteem, & still think that it's okay. Because no. NO. It's not okay. It's just plain revolting. Really. Shut up. Age is just a number. Hashtag just saying.

& let me get this straight - I don't freaking care even if you are my elder because hey if you want to be respected, you have got to make yourself DESERVED to be respected. Period. I know I am dumb & gets easily distracted & have a bad attitude & lazy & stubborn & stupid & rude & blahblahblablablab //goes on to list 1001 things I have memorized by heart about all those stuff I heard about me// but you know what? Just because a kid does something that an adult disapprove of, DOES NOT mean what the adult did after that (eg: hitting/scolding the kid in public, making a scene) is correct. It does not mean that when a kid is rude, an adult will have the RIGHTS to slap or shout at them, thus, embarrassing the kid, in public. Nope, it does not mean what the adult did was correct too.

Oh plus apparently some people just can't understand I am not a genius I can't get straight As. Okay I am not complaining or anything for the last point but seriously. Urgh, kk shall make full use of my holidays then. 

Oh on a side note, I am heading to China from 7 Dec to 17 Dec. EXCIted hah hah not. I don't mind lah, but I just find the duration a bit too .. long.

Btw asking my parents for tuition is like asking for death sentence like that LOL. That's why "I don't like" tuition. But I know myself & I know I only work best under pressure, & that I need to have someone behind constantly pushing me (wah make me sound like I have no backbone) & seriously without tuition, I would just potate at home everyday after school.

CCA tmr & tbh I am not //exactly// look forward to it. The "CO IS SO SIAN" phrase in my life is not over yet. Argh. New teacher coming in tomorrow. Hope she will be good & that huqin standard will improve because seriously right now CO standard is just like. //neighs// K lah I know I also not very good lah, so I have no rights to complain lor. Plus my passion for CO is also dying liao lor (because of some stuff ahem clears throat) but honestly I just wished the best for my CCA like really it used to be so fun & everything but I really do not know what happened because right now I am not looking forward to it as much as I used to 2 years back. Sobs aggressively.

Did nothing productive today, all I did was laze around & watch my dramas. Currently watching Disclosed (Channel 8), The Heirs (Celine's Recommendation), & Master's Sun. Disclosed is like showed every weekday on Channel 8 @ 9pm, whereas The Heirs comes out only every Thursday & Friday. Very guailan right!!!!!! I was totally like: " R U KIDDING ME L O L" when Celine told me that. So I watch Master's Sun while waiting for the episodes to air. ;; Because it's like the only new drama where all the episodes come out already. Sian right haha but all three shows are not bad. 

Especially Master's Sun, it's like a must watch. ;-) Kind of unique because it's horror + comedy + romance. & this makes it stand out from other shows because like plz first time I see got horror but still got comedy in a drama series ley!!! Cool right. Disclosed is about crime & thriller & blahblah. Not really hooked on it yet but I find the chemistry between Jesseca Liu & Terance Huang great?? Haha okay idk. 

I don't really like watching romancy type of shows (I guess I am not so of a lovely dopey person) because I find it retarded that those kind of shows are very predictable. Like this popular Guy A fall for this poor girl then suddenly baaaaam childhood friend of the girl appears & fight with Guy A for the girl then somehow Guy A get engaged to another girl because the mum/dad/bro/sis/grandpa/grandma/cat/dog/maid disapprove of the relationship and babaduuuums. Haha I have no idea why I am watching The Heirs because there's like a freaking love triangle in it asdfghjkl. MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE THE CASTS R SHUAI. *-* K.

Alright shall head to sleep now, have to do Chem Periodic Table Worksheet tomorrow. Slacked enough for the day! Hehe.

"At least I can lose weight for free

But you, my dear

Requires at least ten thousand dollars 

To fix that face of yours."

olevel tomorrow heehaw

chinese olevel in less than 24 hours time .. I AM SO NERVOUS ASDFGHJKL ok bye lol blog soon xoxo

what If

what if I am an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep 

3 days of extension week down, 5 more days to go. Still surviving pretty well!!!! Extension week is not //that// bad because there's only like 3 lessons a day & school ends at 11! Yay. Although some days end at 12.30 but it's still considered early. Actually I wouldn't mind going to school if lessons end at 11/12.30 everyday. :P

Tried to gehkiang & did the drop 10 workout yesterday & now I have muscle aches all over I CANNOT EVEN SNEEZE OR SHIT BECAUSE MY ABDOMEN WILL HURT SO MUCH oh damnit. In case people are wondering what the drop 10 workout is, basically it's just a series of exercise which is considered quite intensive to me lor. & this is only Day 1. ... ok

100 crunches
90 jumping jacks
80 lunges
70 squats
60 sec jog on the spot
50 sec plank
40 jumping jacks
30 squats
20 high knees
10 push ups

I AM ALREADY FEELING THE FATIGUE FROM TYPING THAT. HAHAHAHA. But hey after the workout you will feel damn shiok lor!!!!

Chinese o'level is like in less that 2 weeks time? Oooooohmygod urm ok tbh idek how to study for it T_T But ohwell shall try & finish up this cloze passage practices in this book later. Study date with Claudia tomorrow! Yay. Went to starbucks with Germaine today but I only managed to do three practices because we ended up talking for 2+ hours. XD

Anyway CO's not going to have overnight camp .. because 1) our teachers did not help us with the proposal, unlike the other CCAs, where their teachers helped out lol 2) there's too many people in CO & apparently there's this unreasonable rule of having 1 teacher to 10 students so we need around 8 teachers which is like nonononONOPE. Really lame max siah, as if we can even find any teachers who's not in charge of CO to come help out in the first place. Somemore need find until 8 teachers, seriously? 3) we only had like around 2 weeks to do the proposal & it's really damn retarded + unfair + unreasonable because obviously the quality of the proposal will be like crap. Don't use brain also know it's difficult to produce a good proposal with that short amount time frame right. Really just feel the need to rant because I just can't stand how unfair it is lor, we didn't even have June Camp, & somemore it's like 2D1N only leh. Volleyball 3D2N also can, table tennis 1 teacher to 50 students also can. Then we like this nia cannot, & the people in CO wah lagi best, will complain if the camp's not well planned har har ok. Got difference between complaining & giving qualitative feedback horh. I didn't helped out much so I can't say anything but I wouldn't mind doing extra stuff if we can have overnight, although it's kind of pointless now. I don't blame the Top 3 because I know they tried their best already!!!!!!! Plus they did like the most things. But I can't hep feeling disappointed lah because I was looking forward to the overnight camp then now. Kk nvm, shall just try & make this camp memorable and fun. Those rants above are base on my perspective, my own point of view, so I am sorry if it offends anyone l o l

Outing with LYCO on Wednesday. ;D Not really outing lah, just went around Marine Parade & took some retarded photos then ate lunch at scoop of art, followed by icecream at Swensens. Pig or pig siah us HAHAHAHAHA. Alright then shall go & revise for chinese o'level le, will blog soon hahaha xoxo

"If the sun were to explode,

You wouldn't know about it 

Till eight minutes later

It's not the part,

Where the sun explodes

That gives me a heavy heart

But the fact that, 

Me knowing

I wouldn't be able to reach you

Before the world went dark."

we think we’re made of numbers. percentages on tests, pounds on a scale, likes on a photo, price tags on clothes. but we’re not. we are made of love and happiness and they way we laugh. we’re made of good memories and late nights and past-curfews. we have more substance than numbers.

& if you talk, make sure you mean what you say

FIRSTLY SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING. HAHAHAHAHA. Wanted to blog like since 3 days ago but obviously procrastination got the better of me?? Finally decided to get my ass down to blog AFTER GORDON SHOUTED AT ME IN THE CANTEEN because I didn't update my blog wow ok thanks dude 

Had school for the past week, yay for normal lessonz!!! Okay lah but actually my class quite slack, because somehow we always managed to persuade the teachers to show us videos. So we didn't /really/ had any lessons. Overall, school is just sort of. Meh. Nothing interesting caught my attention, okay maybe except for the fact that NCC sold Krispy Kreme. One doughnut for $4. Ex right!! BUT HEY I BROUGHT IT HAHA BECAUSE THE PROFIT WILL BE DONATED TO THE ORPHANS IN VIETNAM SO I AM TECHNICALLY DOING A GOOD DEED haehae. :-)

~random picture time~

Remember the ice-skating outing I had, basically this picture sums up my whole day. Ice-skating x Marble Slab :-) Photoshopped Genevieve in there. HAHAHAHAHA. Spend like almost 40minutes doing this okay!! Used like PhotoGrid (compiling of the photos) > Line Camera (photoshop + date) > PicsArt (overlay)

USS with Denyse & Sis last Friday!! Was supposed to go this week, but my dear sister brought the ticket, thinking that the date was not specify, until she read the fine print & realized it's meant for Friday. Oh well, enjoyed ourselves nevertheless :D

Just a few photos, as the rest consist of camwhores. HAHAHA. 

YES I CAMWHORED WITH A GHOST

SEOUL GARDEN WITH CLIQUE LAST WEEK. HEHE FUN FUN FUN.

Amelia lor

Long overdue-d LYCO photo LOL

Went Sherry's house with Hazel & Germaine on Thursday. Was quite a horrific experience BECAUSE WE GOT LOCKED IN HER ROOM HAHAHA. Went library in the morning then went over to meet Hazel for lunch. Germaine joined us halfway then we went to find Sherry at Century Square. Headed over to her house & watched PeeMak! Third time watching it but I didn't mind because YES IT'S THAT GOOD. Then halfway through the movie Sherry wanted to go out to take water BUT WELL THE DOOR IS STUCK we shook it off, thinking that it's just a minor problem which could be resolved quickly later, we continued watching the movie. Yeah we did laughed, & screamed - & cried (well, excluding me because I know the plot already hah) It's like the nicest horror-comedy lah please. 6 out of 5 stars bc peemak HAHAHA OK IDEK WHAT AM I SAYING. So in the end Sherry's mum tried to hammer the door down. It was damn funny I swear. We were stuck in the room for another 15mins after the movie, before Sherry's mum decided to call the locksmith & SHE TOLD US WE HAD TO WAIT FOR THE LOCKSMITH TO COME 45MINS LIKE WHAT. But time flies quite fast as we prank called people + talked about stuff ok so it was still a great day afterall.

Had a jog this morning ^-^ & heading out now to fetch Huiru! Hehe alright blog soon yeah. 

It's okay

I am still

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bend, not broken

& we can learn to love again

Had a great time out yesterday & today! :-) Was enjoying myself until I realized I am going to get back my EOY results tomorrow whyyyyyy oh why. Not expecting anything much, just hope that I would be able to pass all my subjects.

Oh yeah anyway did I mention the incident where I accidentally deleted my 3IT album -.- I DELETED THE WHOLE ALBUM BY ACCIDENT K SHUQIN R U FOR REAL?! I am still damn pissed looking back at it now. It happened one week ago eh, & I spend the whole afternoon, like really WHOLE afternoon restoring back the album using this app. Because well, the album was reallyreally important to me as it contains like 130+ pictures of me & 3IT then all because of some careless mistake I accidentally deleted the whole album & I was freaking pissed. Wait the main point was after spending the whole afternoon restoring back the album using the app, they told me that I need to pay $78 in order to download the photos. LIKE SERIOUSLY W H A T ?! BECAUSE FIRSTLY, I spend the whole afternoon on it & secondly, why din they state so in the first place!!!!!! Thirdly, my photos are gone, FOREVER. & THAT SUCKS. So yep I was feeling pretty horrid over this incident that day, & I am actually still fuming over that while I am typing this. LOL.

Scrolled through the 2000+ photos, & 50+ albums in my phone to get rid of unwanted photos so that I can have more phone memory. But I am not even half done. ..... Wtf. Picture post up next! :)

Was re-reading through my old posts & I realized wow this blog came a long way. In around 25days time my blog will turn 4 years old! Gasps. Had been blogging a long time ago, since like P3?? But I deleted (not sure intentionally, or unintentionally though) my primary school blog which I grew to regret because there's really a lot of nostalgic memories in it?? This year had been pasting pretty fast ... From Sec 3 Level Camp to SYC to MYE to My Birthday Celebration to EOY. Ok tbh I forgotten many events already, including those significant ones. Oh wait, maybe they were not even singnificant enough to start wtih?? hahahahaha. K anyway, debrief tmr so wishing everyone all the best. Alright, time for a goodnight rest. Bye! x

plot twist: she's not that strong

YOU CAN'T REAP WHAT YOU DIDN'T SOW.

Recovery

maybe it hurts because you can't choose what stays or what fades away

Guess's who is back!! (hint: it's me) EOY IS FINALLY OVER. Well it's not /yet/ officially over but the last paper is English Listening Compre so who cares ahahaha. Oh speaking of tomorrow, I am currently helping Conant for his MuSP duet piece lol?? The exam is tomorrow & we have not even coordinate the pieces. HAHA. I bet Ms Hoe will confirm be shock when she sees me in the music room tomorrow, considering the fact that I was once a music student but I dropped that subject. Anyways, Conant's sister is damn cute lor I swear. But as for the brother (Conant)..., hmm it's a different story AHAHAHA KIDDING!!!!!!!!

We look alike hor ur argument is invalid

Just came back from the airport after sending my sister's boyfriend off. Haha he came Singapore for a week yep I am so tired right now but I figured out that I should do a quick update since I didn't post anything for such a long period of time!! Had been wanting to blog since last Friday but procrastinate got the better of me LOL.

WENT FOR SUPPER LAST NIGHT I CAN STILL FEEL THE FATS IN ME EVEN UP TO NOW U KNOW WHAT THIS CALLS FOR ME TO GO ON A DIET OK BYE

Nuaing on my bed right now someone tell me is this a dream or is this my life~ Ice-skating with the Yerens next Tues & Seoul Garden with my 2LY clique next Wed! OMG EXCITED :D Going to slack for the whole of next week, since the week after is normal lessons. ... Can't they just give us a break or something I MEAN I DON'T MIND LESSONS STARTING AT 10AM & ENDING AT .. 4PM?? Okay no idk haha. Back to it, shall enjoy next week before settling down to get serious BECAUSE IT'S LESS THAN 30DAYS TO CHINESE OLEVEL. Someone please tell me why did this have to happen just when I thought the torture is over. This period is worse than PSLE. Like really.

EOY was. Meh. I basically yolo-ed almost all the way HAHA. Was quite confident of a few paper but.. nawh. Not going to expect much because the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment. SO MY GOAL IS JUST TO PASS ALL MY SUBJECTS. YAY!!!

Headed to Bugis with Celine to meet Huiru & JiaWei after our Bio Paper. 

TAIPEI STATION.

Was supposed to eat at some buffet thingy but it was too ex so we went Taipei Station. The food there not bad lah. Cost $9.70 but there's like rice + side dish + milk tea so it's quite worth it! Would have helped if they gave more meat toppings though. The milk tea taste pretty okay, I choose 70% sweetness & the sweetness was to my liking yay, although the pearls in the milk tea would become harden after a while. There's 2 side dishes to choose from: Sweet Potato Fries or Tofu Cubes. THE POTATO FRIES ARE LIKE SDKGNSIONFASMLADKM HEAVEN. Okay not that exaggerating but it tasted good lor!!!! Celine & me planned to go Carissa's house after lunch but we were too tired so we went home to slept instead HAHA.

Was watching my drama when CaiLeng, Germaine, & Sherry decided to crash my house! Tsk haha. Love 3IT lah ((ok that was random)).

Hmm k just a quick recap of last week. 

So.., had SS & Emaths on Monday. SS was quite okay to me, except the fact that I didn't finish one question which cause me 6marks. But other than that, I was quite pleased with my essay. OH ANYWAYS I TOTALLY DIDN'T KNOW THAT WE CAN CHOOSE THE QUESTIONS FOR SEQ SO ACTUALLY JUST STUDYING ONE CHAPTER FOR CONTENT WILL DO SINCE IT IS ONE QUESTION PER CHAPTER WTHECK. Kk back to it, emaths was difficult. Like according to some people, more difficult then amaths. (although i beg to differ) then got one question got some error, then the teacher only gave us like extra 5 minutes to solve like srsly!! But I AM FINE WITH IT LAH lol bc idek how do that question in the first place AHAHAHA but apparently some people got really pissed then they ranted on Twitter & it was just urm. Lol. 

RnJ & Chem was on Tuesday. RnJ was okay but I didn't finish part 2 of the last question. Looking back now I realized I could have finish it if I wrote faster but oh well my hand was damn pain lor!!!!! (excuses, I tell myself) Chem was easy to me BUT BUT BUT I AM NOT GOING TO EXPECT ANYTHING BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO DISAPPOINT MYSELF. Texas Chicken with Hazel & Germaine after school hehe I ENJOYED MY ICECREAM YAY which is very nice btw (ok shuqin good to know) 

Then Egeog was on Wednesday & I practically gave up on the whole thing?? Idk lah I just lost the drive & motiavtion. Plus it was prettty screwed up at the start because 1) there was not enough seats 2) the last row didn't had the exam paper 3) the teachers were talking a lot of crap and randomly scolding us & when everyone finally settled down, I forgotten half of the things I memorized. LOL. Had a busy afternoon after that because the exam ended at around 9.50am. Went for breakfast with Carissa, Celine, & Kenneth. Then headed to Katong I12 to find Caileng, Germaine, & Joyin. At around 1pm, I then went to Sumedha's house to find her because Elythea is going to tutor her & me for amaths. SUMEDHA'S HOUSE IS 3 STOREYS LIKE WOW I TOTALLY DIN KNOW THAT OKAY & Elythea is a great tuition teacher. Patient + Smart. Ahahahaha lol. 

LOTF + Amaths on Thurs.... it was horrible don't even ask me why. LOTF was pretty okay like I finished everything, although I am not entirely confident of my essay & as for amaths hah don't even talk about it pls. The same incident that happened for emaths occured for amaths again. Some question got error then we were given an additional 5 minutes to solve it, BUT AS USUAL I SKIPPED THE QUESTION BC IDEK HOW DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE LOL.

Bio was our last paper & it was like. Double meh. Only managed to do 22marks worth out of 70marks of Section B & C hah tell me what's the meaning of screwed. Section C 30marks, all untouched. I really do not know what I was doing but I had a total mindblank. Spend too much time of this graph question that I really do not know how to managed the rest. Question: "Name the differences between Human Transport System & Plant Transport System." My answer: "The differences are that humans transport blood but plants transport water." I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS I DOING OK T_T

This is like a wake up call for me to buck up or whatsoever but I know I won't. ..... heh. Looking back now, the week past pretty fast!!! :O OK TIME NEED TO LIKE SLOW DOWN OR SOMETHING LOL I can't catch up with this. ;-;

Went to swensen with CaiLeng & Germaine two weeks ago on one of the date which I forgotten hehe. Attempted to take some candid photo of me & Germaine causally looking at the menu BUT IT ENDED UP AS A DISASTER OKAY.

Time to save my reputation (if I even had any to begin with) with this photo of me & CaiLeng HAHAHA OKAY. 

WE LOOK SO HAPPY.

Had been having kind of mix up emotions these few days, I mean I am currently happy with my life but at the same time I do not know why, but when I am alone, I just over think & get sad & feel empty & stuff. I guess it happens to everyone bah, just depends on how hard does it affects each individual. I don't dislike being alone but I hate feeling lonely. I REALLY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT LAH HAHA. But to put it in layman terms I am just being an over paranoid girl right now. Damn. I think that the worse part of being sad is that you are used to the pain, used to it so much that you get immune to it, that it does not even matter any more. Which happens to me... a lot. 

Recently, I have been dreading CCA to come. I mean, I don't exactly look forward to CO now. Sounds quite ironic eh? Especially since I am the recreational rep, & my duty is to make people enjoy CO. LOL. On a side note, I hope that my section can bond more........., but with all the drama nowadays urm lol idek what to do/expect/say.

MY MOTIVATION TO BE ALIVE ^

It's currently 2..15am & this means that there's less than 4 hours of sleep for me haha shag. Kkk time to go then!! Will update soon I promise. ;-) 

You don't deserve a point of view

If the only person you see is you