I am sorry for fucking up our friendship.
Back to blogging! Sorry for MIA-ing yesterday. Had tuition all the way to 9.30 :( Geog & Eng test today. Sian.
I dun get it, it's not like I am pms-ing or anythin (k maybe I am) but I just feel like stabbing everything in my sight. I get irritated damn easily now of days. & I will break into tears all of a sudden. WIthout any reasons for doing so. Thanks people for bearing with me. :/
I hate getting stuck in friendship chains & friendship chains & friendship chains. If I do this, that side will angry. If I do that, the other side will angry. If I don't do anyrhing, both side angry.
I have totally no goals for my life. I dun even know what I want to be when I grow up. Is like I am just wondering around. Endlessly, Aimlessy.
"Is not that I hate you. Let's just put it this way. If you are on fire & I have a glass of water...., I would drink it infront of you."
Chinese & Chem text next week. Fml. So many god dammit tests. What's the big freaking deal of studying & getting some freaking degree. I really dun understand. You are not gonna paste that damn sheet of paper on ur forehead & go around the MRT train showing everyone "I have a university scholarship degree." What matters most is ur attitude, personality & your outlook on life. If you are some friendless degree holder with thoughts of committing sucidea everyday, I dun see how a damn piece of paper is going to help you. Maybe I am just not made out for studying.
If you are some arrognat, thinking you are "inferior" & da best out of da best kind of person, you should go & bang a wall. Seriously. I can't stand proud people #ttvfm, or people who like to boast, & making people feel worthless. This kind of people in the world, is a BIG nonono.
Society have changed the meaning of "studying". Fuckyou, society. "They say everyone's beautiful, then they judge us." Studying. It's about gaining knowledge for oneself, for your own benefits. It's NOT about being so fcxking competitive just to be at the top. Students now just study & study & study. The reason? To get a good class & get a good school & get a good grade & get a good job. To survive in this fucking society. People just dun understand the real meaning of studying. In their head, all they ever think when it comes to studying is to "Get a good grade, Be the best, Beat everyone, Get the top in class." How about those naturally dumb people? They will be at the bottom, while those "Degree Holder" would be at the top. TheEnd.
Ok I have done ranting for the day. Shall sleep now cause my eyelids are really attracting to each other, just like 2 North & South pole magnets, getting ready to collide.
May tomorrow be a better day. Nights!
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