"they told me that 
the human heart is roughly the size of a fist

punching the desk as hard 
as I could
the skin on my knuckles tore open
blood surfacing, shooting pain up my arm

when asked why I did it, 
I could only say that I was testing
my heart

these days, I still ball my hand
into a fist, & just stare at it for a bit
I do this every day, & sometimes I'll punch something
like my desk, or a wall
or the drawer that holds all the letters

my fist has gotten a little larger since then,
but it still breaks & bleed
just the same"