"I shall just pretend to hate you now so it won't hurt that much when you're gone."

I am tire out from all the overthinking at night & stuff.
Spend the whole day with JiaYing &, FangYing. Was really fun. ^^ Going Bugis with JiaYing, PuiTing, & Amelia tomorrow. :D Hope it would be great! I cut my fringe ahahaha but it wasn't suppose to turn out as bangs!!! Sighhs. D: Anyways my phone front camera sucks. Ohwell. But no point in complaining cause I'm already kidda glad that I have a secondary camera. Have been feeling really down these few days. :( But somehow, I forget some of the stuff when I'm out with friends. However, after I come back home, when I am all alone, the flashback starts hitting in. & damn, it hurts. I hate having mixed feelings. Like seriously. A part of me feels guilty & mean. But there's another part of me that feels pissed. I really do not know which emotion to control. Like the saying always goes, there's two wolves inside our body. The evil, & the good. Which wolf would win? Well.., the one whom we choose to feed. However right now, I am in a dilemma. Which is the correct way? & how scarred would I be at the end of the day. The correct way need not means the most emotionless way. Regarding this situation. Well, to me, I am suppose to be happy. But no, I feel sad. I feel disappointed. Torn, between my feelings. Two wrongs doesn't make one right. I am not exactly sure of my feelings right now. I feel like a mean person. & damn frustrsted. But whenever I think of those stuff.., the hate gradually drown the thinking. Ending here. Nights. :) xo

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